The Nonbinary Notebook

The One with Everything

July 11, 2016

4:20 PM (blaze it)

HEYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
~Rico

Sup guys, it's me again, because who the fuck else would it be? I was gonna write this chapter Friday but I was too lazy. Then I was gonna write it Saturday but I was too lazy. Then I was gonna write it yesterday but -- you guessed it -- the internet went out.

Just kidding. I was too lazy.

Anywho, we went to the beach Friday and some stuff went down and that's why I wanted to write about it. But now I have even more stuff to write about! So my procrastination paid off!!1!1!!1!

You know the drill.

YOU KNOW THE DRILL:

•We went to the beach Friday, woot woot, etc. It was okay. I laid on the beach in jeans and read Harry Potter for a while, then we walked around the shops for a bit. I bought a rock.

On the way home, my mom was like "why don't you wear shorts? Is it the shaving thing?" And I said, mucho awkwardly, "uh yeah". Then she asked me the same question I asked myself a few chapters ago: "why don't you just say you're a boy?" She went on to explain, "You've got the short hair, the gender-neutral clothes, the gender-neutral name, the binder... Nobody will even notice if you don't shave." So basically, my mom told me I could pass. But she's right that nobody would notice me in shorts. I don't know the real reason I wore jeans, to tell you the truth. I guess some more soul-searching is in order.

• DO NOT -- I REPEAT -- DO NOT BE AN IDIOT LIKE YOUR BIG BROTHER FITZ AND DO STUPID THINGS. DON'T. We went to Skyzone the other day, which is an indoor trampoline extravaganza of fun, and I, being your idiot big brother, had to fUCKING WEAR A BINDER. It was HELL. I had to take a break like every ten minutes to drink water and breathe heavily. And I got a stitch in my side near the end, which hasn't gone away, so yikes.

DO AS I SAY, NOT AS I DO. Please be smarter than me.

•I've been seriously considering a piercing. However, shit is confusing.

Here's the scoop: My school dress code states that no hoops can be worn on the face for safety reasons (I guess they can get caught on stuff). So I can't have a lip or nose or eyebrow ring. It does not, however, say anything about studs. Those are a lot less of a safety hazard by the dress code standards. I've seen a lot of girls with little nose studs too. I also seem to remember somebody telling me, or reading somewhere that only nose studs are allowed. But I can't find it anywhere in the dress code.

(dance break)

So my question is, are studs elsewhere allowed? Like these:

Because I'm pretty partial to spider, dahlia, and joker bites myself. In any case, a lip piercing of some kind would be ideal. However, two of my friends are planning on getting nose studs soon and want me to join. I do not want a nose stud even a little bit. I hate them so much. They're barely noticeable; they look like a freckle. To me they're not much of a statement. I want something cool that people will notice, and that might even help me pass. Maybe. Idk. Idc. I just wanna look cool ok? ugh.

•I made a cute doll look

His leg looks too small in the pic but it's not I promise. His name is Jax and he's incredibly DIY, consisting of two socks, a foam ball, my jeans, an eraser, and a tissue, among other sHit.

But yeah so I love him the end

•I love coconut

•I pulled an all-nighter last night with my pal Richard (not his real name of course). It was his first all-nighter ever so yay! We told jokes and stories and just generally dicked around for like eleven hours.

But it was all over Skype, since he lives in Texas and I live in Florida. rip

•I want another Popsicle but we're out of the coconut ones

•I had an anxiety attack last night because everyone was talking over each other. That was fun

•man I love green tea

•••

Wow that was a lot of crap, sorry for ranting about e v e r y t h i n g.

"I hope your Monday feels nothing like a Monday."
~Fitz 2017