When We Held Hands

Chapter 12

"Are you sure you're going to be okay, tonight? We can stay up all night like we used to when you cry because of him." He said with so much concern. 

I stopped crying and smiled weakly, "Kaya ko na, Justus. You go home. Be safe, alright?" 

He sighed and smiled, "You know I'm always here right?" 

I nodded and hugged him tight. 

I waved goodbye to his car and went inside once again. 

He doesn't deserve me, he deserves better. 

May mga maid na tinulungan ako pero I politely declined. 

Tinanggal ko na heels ko at umakyat na sa kwarto ko. 

I sighed, hindi ko na alam kung pang ilan na 'to. 

Dumiretso na ako sa banyo at naghilamos na. 

Making sure no sign of makeup is on my face. I brushed my teeth and tied my hair into a messy bun. 

Wearing my comfy silk pajamas and went off to my bed. 

"Zea, may bisita ka." Gising sa'kin ni Mommy. 

Dahan-dahan akong umupo at nginitian si mommy.

Lumabas na si mommy and I quickly went to my bathroom and washed my face. 

I sighed and remove the hair tie and let the natural waves bounce. 

Bumaba na ako at nadatnan ang barkada, everyone is here. 

"H-hi." I awkwardly greeted. 

Napatingin sila sa'kin at ngumiti. 

"We have news!" Masayang sabi ni Jane. 

Tumango ako at ngumiti, "Uh hmm, what is it?" 

Nagkatinginan sila, "So, I'm 5 months pregnant." 

20 weeks? So malalaman nila yung gender. That's the news.

"It's a girl!" Ngumiti sila. 

Tumango tango ako at ngumiti, "Congratulations!" 

Hinawakan ko yung belly niya and I smiled. Too young but it's all going to be worth it. 

Umupo na ko at tuwang tuwa sila, nakatingin lang sila Nyla, Delton at Aisha sa'kin. 

Umiling ako at ngumiti ng pilit. Stop. 

Habang kumakain ako pinagkakaguluhan nila yung sa baby. Tahimik lang na nakangisi si Lance. 

Masaya ka kasi aalagaan mo sila? Siyempre. 

Ang slow mo naman, Zea. 

"I want you to name my child, Azalea." Jane said snapping me out of my thoughts. 

"Huh?! Bakit ako?" Naguguluhan kong tanong.

"Sige na!" Sigaw nila. 

I sighed, "Mabel Luna." 

"That's beautiful. Mabel Luna it is!" Masaya niyang sambit. 

Kumain ako ng tahimik at ang ingay lang nila ang naririnig ko. Bumabalot sa buong kwarto.

Pag tapos ko kumain, tumayo na ako. Which caused them to stop. 

"Music room lang. Mag piapiano lang." Paalam ko.

Sabay sabay silang tumayo at sabay din silang nag sabi ng "SAMA KAMI!" 

Umupo na ako at binuksan ang cover. I felt the keys and I missed this. 

"Kanta ka din ah!" Ngiti ni Nyla. 

Natawa na lang ako.

"I told you my heart's leaning towards you, a little more than I knew something was scaring you

Is it too much or too fast or too forward?

Should I step back and pretend I don't feel this way?

I don't wanna tell a lie, I don't wanna have to hide

It's on the line I've waited for a sign." 

I really did wait. Bakit ang sakit? 

"I see it in your eyes, I, I know you really feel the same

I need to know if I should raise or fold, my heart is stuck on hold

I, I wanna know which way to go

I can't love alone, I can't love alone" 


Can I still be independet and love alone?

"I tried not to fall so far for you, now I can't get away from anything you say

You make me feel nervous and stupid whenever I tell you I'm tired of playing games

I don't wanna tell a lie, I don't wanna have to hide." 

Sinulyapan ko si Lance and he was staring intently at me. 

"It's on the line I've waited for a sign

I see it in your eyes, I, I know you really feel the same

I need to know if I should raise or fold, my heart is stuck on hold

I, I wanna know which way to go

I can't love alone

Oh, I can't stay here wonderin' if you want me

If you don't take me, you should leave

It's on the line I've waited for a sign

I see it in your eyes, I, I know you really feel the same

I need to know if I should raise or fold, my heart is stuck on hold

I, I wanna know which way to go

I can't love alone

I can't love alone

I can't love alone."

I sighed and applauds was surrounding my ears. 

"You're making it hard for me." He breathed near me. 

You're making it harder for me, Lance. You shatter me, again and again!