You're My Daydream- Book 2

Doubtful Thoughts And A Strong Reasurance

Kara:

I woke up next to Lena, still asleep, I turned and looked at the clock.

1:00 am

Why in Rao's name did he have to wake me up so early?

I turned around and saw Lena sleeping peacefully, her breathing light and calm. I smiled, and sat up, getting a better look at her, her raven hair shimmered in the moonlight, her chest rising and falling gently, her face,beautiful  as always, sometimes I wonder what did I do to deserve Lena.

What did I do to deserve Lena?

She's smart, kind, beautiful, and amazingly sexy, she could have anyone in the world, why choose me?

I may be Supergirl to the outside world, but on the inside... I'm just the girl who lost her parents, who had to be in the shadows from my powers, Kal- I mean Clark was the hero, and still is, all I am inside...

Is just Kara.

Why? Why me? She could have any man or woman in the world, but out of seven billion people in this world..

But why me?

She softly groaned and stired a little, but not enough to wake her up, I gotten up softly and went to the music room, a soundproof room from the outside, I sat down on the chair and trailed my fingers along the keys, feeling it's touch. I played a soft melody, singing to the lyrics.

The wound heals but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love
You're at war with love, yeah

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle

I played the keys on point, not missing a single key, when I played, and not missing a single word when I sang, I sang true to myself, no one watching me, looking at me in anticipation or expectation, it was just me here, singing, playing the piano.

Never let a wound ruin me
But I feel like ruin's wooing me
Arrow holes that never close from cupid on a shooting spree
Feeling stupid cause I know it ain't no you and me
But when you're trying to beat the odds up
Been trying to keep your nods up and you know that you should know
And let her go but the fear of the unknown
Holding another lover's phone sends you back into the zone
With no Tom Hanks to bring you home
A lover not a fighter on the front line with a poem
Trying to write yourself a rifle
Maybe sharpen up a song
To fight the tanks and drones of you being alone

I started to sing louder, not caring if anyone had came in on me, I only cared about the piano, my voice, and me.

I only cared about me right now

I wish I never looked, I wish I never touched
I wish that I could stop loving you so much
Cause I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget her
I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
Cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over

I remembered about Mon-el, his stupid and obnoxious asshole attitude, all the times I protected him from Alex, hiding the bruises he gave me, going to Lena for support. The one I truly loved, Lena, which brung me back to that question.

What did I do to deserve my scars, my shitty life with Mon-el, what did I do to deserve my family, what did I do to deserve Lena?