Love & Lust

Chapter 6

Dinner with Zach, was completely amazing. He was a great cook.
We drank too much wine, and broke our number one rule. Never sleep over. Zach suggested it and I happily agreed.
We made love on his kitchen counter and then on his couch before I fell asleep in his arms. Of course this changed nothing, our relationship was purely physical, our lust for each other was out of control.
He dropped me off outside my apartment building and kissed me on my cheek.
"Call you later?"
"Yeah sure " I got out of his car and waved goodbye.

As soon as I opened the door an avalanche of questions descended upon me.
"Woah guys one at a time. "
"Where were you?" Beverly.
"Pshh she was with Zach where else?" Stacy.
"I was making sure, why did you break the rule?"
I decided to change the topic. "Hey where's Caitlin?"
"Don't change the topic Anna. "Stacy gave me a fierce look.
"Okay, okay, I stayed over because we drank too much and we couldn't drive. "
They weren't accepting that one.
"Why didn't you call an Uber?"
"Because, Stacy I didn't have any money on me. "
"Yes but He could've paid for it. "
"Beverly you know I wouldn't accept that "
"Well Stacy she has a point. "

I rolled my eyes and threw my self on the couch. "Oh my Dolce & Banana, is that his Tee??"
"Yes, but what else could I have worn? What is with you guys?"
Beverly sighed sadly "Well the thing is Anna we were kind of hoping you finally realized that you love him."
"Yeah" Stacy agreed
I was shocked, no confused.
"Why? Zach and I are perfectly happy with our relationship "
"Yes but Anna you're 22, the last time I heard you say you love someone was when you were 17. " Beverly's big eyes looked at me and they were filled with concern.

"I don't have to rush falling in love, it will happen when the time is right. I thought we all agreed on this. "
I was completely confused, why were they so eager for me to fall in love.
"Well Bev and I just think you didn't quite get over you know who. "
I rolled my eyes. "Seriously, I'm so over him. I'm gonna go rest when I come back you guys better be acting normal. "

I closed my bedroom door and threw myself on my bed. Throwing myself on furniture was a habit of mine Zach had picked up, he found it cute.
I closed my eyes and tears rolled down my hot cheeks. Bev and Stacy were right. For years I had this nagging feeling that I shouldn't have left Him, it was gnawing on my heart. There were so many things left unsaid and feelings unexpressed. I don't know if I could say truthfully that I loved him but, I thought about him all the time.

One of the reasons that I hung out with Zach most of the time was because he was so good at helping me forget. Tyreece and I were never meant to be and it had been years but I couldn't help but feel like we could've made it work. Stupid right? I cried myself to sleep and woke up craving ice cream badly.

I grabbed my phone and headed to the kitchen. I got a tub of ice cream from the freezer and sat down on the stool. I checked my phone for messages. Crap.  Zach had called me 3 times. I called him back.

"Miss Jackson. "
"Mr Jacobs"
"I called you earlier. "
"I noticed, sorry I was sleeping. "
"Mhhm, I really tired you out didn't I?"
I could literally hear his perfect smile in that voice that made me melt. If chocolate and silk could speak, it would be how they would sound.
"No, Zach. Just not feeling good. "
"Emotionally?"
"Yes."
"I was wondering why I couldn't hear you rolling your eyes at me. "
I rolled my eyes.
"You just rolled them didn't you?"
"No " I laughed
"Well I hope it gets better soon, have a goodnight Anna. "
"Thanks Zach. "

I was smiling the whole time, as soon as I couldn't hear his voice. The feeling hit me again. Tyreeceitis. I was suffering from it. I hated every minute. My stomach did somersaults and not in a good way. I had to find a way to get over Tyreece, our relationship was full of negativity.  Besides I didn't love him anymore,but I couldn't help but wish things had been different.