Shattered Heart

Part 46 ~ Broken

I put on my coat, get in my car and drive home. 

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I take a hot shower, put on fresh boxers and a white v-neck shirt and turn on the TV. I'm feeling kinda lonely right now, not having my little girl here. I turn off all the lights, lay down on the couch and look at the moon. 

My eyes well up with tears . . again. 

I take a look at my phone. 

No messages, no calls. 

Good. 

I wouldn't want any messages or calls from him anyway. I let out a frustrated sigh, realizing that tomorrow is Monday again . . which means going back to work. I'm so not looking forward to it. I finish watching some black and white movie and head on to bed. 

I get under the covers and make myself comfortable. I notice Chris' aroma on my pillow. I quickly turn it around and make myself comfortable again. 

My alarm clock goes off at exactly 6am . . I get out of bed, take a shower, drink a cup of coffee and get going. It's freezing outside . . I hate December. I get in my car and turn on the heat. Holy cow, my fingers are about to fall off. 

I take a look at my phone.

Still no messages . .

still no calls . . 

And I still don't care. 

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A whole week goes by without having any kind of contact with Chris whatsoever. He hasn't called, nor has he texted me for almost a week. It's Saturday afternoon and I'm sitting here in front of the TV with Serena. 

Chris and I never went this long without talking to each other. Looks like his feelings for me are gone. Good for him . . and good for me. 

"Daddy, where is Uncle Chris?"

"I don't know where he is, baby . . but I'm sure he's thinking about you"

"I'm thinking about Uncle Chris too, Daddy . . I miss him very much . . I wanna play with him . . when is he coming back, Daddy?"

". . . . I don't know, baby"

"Is he coming tonight?"

". . . . I don't think so, baby"

"Is he coming tomorrow?"

. . . . .

"Do . . do you want some ice cream?"

"YAAAAY!"

I fix Serena a bowl of ice cream and put it in front of her on the coffee table. I open my laptop and decide to check Facebook. Chris hasn't posted anything in a whole week. He hasn't posted on Facebook, Instagram or Twitter . . . nothing. 

If he thinks I'm going to call him or text him, he's so wrong. 

I don't care. 

We can go another week without talking to each other, if he wants to . . wouldn't bother me one bit. 

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It's bedtime now. I let Serena stay up a little longer. It's 9:10pm and we're about to fall asleep. I'm allowing her to sleep in my bed tonight. She's been really clingy today . . I think she's coming up with a cold. I hope not though. 

"Twinkle, twinkle, little star . . how I wonder what you are . . up above the world so high, like a diamond in the sky . . twinkle, twinkle little star . . how I wonder what you are"

"Sing it again, daddy . . please!"

"Alright . . one more time . . and then it's time to sleep, ok? . . twinkle, twinkle, little star . . how I wonder what you are . . up above the world so high, like a diamond in the sky . . twinkle, twinkle little star . . how I wonder what you are"

Serena lays down on top of me. I pull the covers up to her shoulders and turn off the bedside lamp. "Good night, little one"

"Good night, daddy"

~ Munchkin's point of view ~ 

I wake up because daddy's phone is ringing . . Daddy is still sleeping . . so I'm going to pick up his phone for him. I grab it and take a look. I know how to work a phone, mommy has the same one. I click on the green button.

"Hello? this is princess Serena!"

"Munchkin?? . . hi, sweetie!!"

"Uncle Chris? . . where are you? . . I miss you!"

"I miss you, too . . . where is your daddy?"

"My Daddy? . . he's sleeping . . and he's snoring, too"

"Oh! I'm sorry, munchkin . . I didn't mean to wake you up . . you go back to sleep, ok? . . tell daddy tomorrow morning that I called, alright?"

"Ok, Uncle Chris . . I love you"

"I love you a hundred times more, baby munchkin!"

"Are you coming tomorrow, Uncle Chris?"

"Umm . . . sweetie, I would love to see you but Uncle Chris is very busy right now, you know? . . I'm currently moving and I have so much to do . . but I will make sure to give you a call tomorrow, ok? . . can you give me a kiss through the phone?"

"Ok . . . MUAH*

"Thank you, bye bye!"

"Bye, bye, Uncle Chris"

To be continued . . .