SORRY.
SORRY THAT I TELL YOU THE THINGS I WISH MY YOUNGER SELF KNEW
SORRY THAT I DON'T STAND FOR JOKES MADE ABOUT MORE SERIOUS OF THINGS
SORRY THAT MY HEART STILL HURTS FROM NOT FEELING GOOD ENOUGH TO GET THAT PERFECT SCORE OR
A FUCKING SCORE AT ALL
SORRY THAT MY BRAIN FEELS AS IF IT WILL BURST IF I EVER TAKE ON THAT MUCH PRESSURE AGAIN
SORRY THAT IN REALITY? THE THING IM SCARED OF MOST IS THAT YOU'LL SUCCEED
BECAUSE STUPID ME WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BE A MENTAL WRECK BECAUSE
STUPID ME ISN'T ACTUALLY ALL THAT SMART AS WE THOUGHT BECAUSE
STUPID ME LIKES TO DISAGREE WITH YOU ON THINGS BECAUSE
STUPID ME VIEWS YOU AS SO MUCH BETTER THAN MY STUPID NEEDS -
THE STUPID THING THAT'S CALLED BREATHING IS DIFFICULT TO ME AND BECAUSE
I CANT TAKE TESTS- I GET TOO MUCH STRESS AND GET SICK FROM ALL OF IT AND
TURN INTO A MESS
SO I AM sorry.
i am sorry for how much i try not to believe in you but the thing i'm most scared to do, is to watch you be more successful than me but
trust me-
it isn't that hard to do anyway.
