I Needed to, I Had to

Insecure [M]

-Nothing good happen when you're with me!

-We have a wonderful son, you change your apartment so we could fit in as a family, my sister calls me, I start eating, my nightmares are less and less violent. I'm healing and that's because you're there with me and strong for both of us.

-I'm not strong Tiana. I'm weak, I always was. I want to be strong for us but I'm weak.

-And I love your weakness and don't blame you for it so you shouldn't either."

           He lift his head to face me again and his eyes were full of confusion and guilt. He looked at my face and at my injured shoulder he hadn't touched while we were hugging. He softly put his hand against the wound, I winced a bit, the pain from the fight still fresh but let him have his way. He stroked it a bit and bent down to kiss my shoulder. Then we locked eyes again.

"Do you love me?

-Yes, I do.

-Only me?

-Only you.

-I'm yours and you're mine?

-Forever." He whispered putting his forehead against mine.

           I laced my arms around his neck and put my lips on his softly. His lips and mine were dry but it didn't make the kiss less sweet. His eyes searching deep in mine any trace of doubt and his hands holding onto my waist as if he could lose me if he ever let go of it.

"I'm sorry." I whispered before kissing him again.

             His hands tightened even more around my waist and his lips opened to kiss me more. The shy kiss I was giving him were suddenly becoming more needy and he took control of the moment. My arms tightened a bit more around his neck making him deepen the kiss and his tongue dived in my mouth. He stopped our kiss suddenly but stayed as close as possible from me.

"Why do we always end up having sex whenever something serious happen?

-I don't know," I said chuckling.

"Maybe that's the best we have to release bad energies and fill our heart and mind with just each other.

-Maybe that's just how we deal with pain.

-Probably both." I told him putting my lips on his once again.

"This time will be no different, right?

-It's up to you. Do you want me right now?

-I'm craving for you." He said smiling slightly before kissing me again.

           The kiss had nothing innocent nor soft, it was only both our passions colliding in a messy and needy tongue dance. His hands quickly made their way down my waist to my ass and thighs lifting them and my dress to put us at the same height. His hands were so hot stroking my skin as I laced my legs around his waist so he would have less effort to make to carry me. He walked to the open bedroom, still kissing me and then slowly bent down to gently put me down on the bed. His forehead still against mine we were both smiling like kids.