To Matter To You

Chapter 15

Dan and I talked some more. Suddenly the door opened and Trey came in.   I looked up and gave the nod. He acknowledged it as he took off his jacket and threw it on his bed before he fell on it, with a huge sigh.

"Well, hello there Tray." Dan greeted Trey. Trey grunted in response as he closed his eyes.  I chuckled as I got up. 

"Okay, I'm getting a shower. Dan, help yourself to the sodas and snacks in the fridge, ok. I'll be right back." I said as I started to take off my shirt and reached for my towel and toiletries bag. Dan replied, ok . I walked out of the room, heading to the bathroom for that shower.

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Trey's POV

I'm a hell, I'm a heel, I'm a heel... This statement has been playing in a loop in my head. I couldn't believe what I did to Hannah. She's my friend and I did that to her. But I couldn't help it. I never saw her that way. I never thought that we would be more than  friends. She's this amazing, cool and uncomplicated girl. In fact, she's like my best friend. I thought she thought I was her best friend, too. But I guess she thought we were more. I took the pillow and buried my face in it. I let out a frustrated groan. I hate that I probably hurt her. I'm such an asshole. I hurt the one person who gets me. I am so going to hell for this.

"Hey, you alright?" Dan asked suddenly. I froze. Shoot, I forgot he's there. Wait, does he know? I mean, apart from Amy, Hannah's close to Dan. Heck, she's closer to Dan than me. Sometimes, I get jealous.  I want Hannah to be close by me, but not THAT close. Yeah, I'm a creep.

"Yeah, why'd you ask?" I said, mentally kicking myself for making it obvious that I was having a moment of self-loathing. 

"Look, let's be real, shall we. I know what happened at the camp." Dan said, point blank. I gasped inwardly and then groaned as I fell back on my bed. Dan was looking at me like a disapproving mother. Aw, crap.

"What are you talking about?" I said, feigning ignorance. I failed miserably, judging by Dan's 'are you effing kidding me?' look on his face. 

"You know what I'm talking about. So, what are you going to do about it?" Dan said without hesitation. 

"I..I don't know, man. I mean, she just took me by surprise. Look, don't get me wrong. Hannah is an amazing girl-" I started to say but Dan cut me off.

"But you're not attracted to her, right?" Dan said, hitting the nail right on its head.  I looked at Dan and suddenly I knew.  That I am a disgusting human being.

"I feel bad for ..Urgh, damnit! Why is this so complicated!" I groaned in frustration.

"Look, it doesn't have to be. You do what is right and don't you dare hurt her. If you hurt her in any way, I will hunt you down and kill you...Hey, I gotta go. I got study group in half an hour. Say thanks to Liam for me." Dan said as he gathered up his stuff and left the room. 

I lay on my bed, thinking back on the kiss. When Hannah leaned forward and kissed me, I would be lying if I say that I didn't lean towards her a 'lil tiny bit. And I regretted not kissing her back. I was surprised. And before I could kiss her back, she'd pulled away from me anyway. She felt really nice. It wasn't bad, at all. So, why didn't I kiss her back? Why, why, why?!

Hannah's a special girl. We met the first day of class a year ago and she hated me on sight. I guess I was a stupid jock, in college on a basketball scholarship. Only getting by with minimal grades, just enough to keep my scholarship and continue playing basketball.  Hannah didn't want to have anything to do with me at all. But when we were paired in an assignment, I realized that she's incredibly smart and very, very funny. And she didn't flirt with me. Not even once, which I found really refreshing. And she helped my grades plenty with her As. And since that day, there was no question on who my partner in class were.  And now I went and did this to her. Should I have kissed her back? Should I lead her on, when I wasn't sure about what I felt for her? I think that would be far more cruel.  I buried my face into the pillow again. Argh, I'm so screwed!

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A/N

Hey, guys. Sorry for the long, long hiatus. I was struggling a little bit with this because I was not sure how I should continue it. This story is shaping up to be a little more complex and less straight forward than my other novel, Pretty Boy. Anyway, when I was stuck,@Lovely_N kinda helped me out and I want to thank you for pulling me out of that rut! Your suggestions helped me figure out the next step I should take to continue with this story. And I welcome any suggestions if you guys have any, okay. So I hope this chapter is okay to tie you over for the next few days while I work on the next chapter. I kinda have a mental idea on how to continue next, so stay with me, ok. Vote, comment and share this story, ok! Thanks!