i want to be me not your puppet

chapter 10. is that really you?

"now now colt drinking is never the answer."uncle henry says bring me back from my thoughts.

"yeah yeah and sex will kill you and drugs will rot your insides yeah i get it now whats to talk about"i said my tone of voice came out alot more bitchy than i ment.

"i spoke to your father"he continued like i never spoke "he said that when you got home today you were very angry and when he spoke to you you were very agressive towards him and your mother and that you quit all the teams and that you even threaten to hurt them and that it would be best if you moved out"henry explained.

"thats bullshit i never threaten anyone yeah maybe i was a bit agressive with shouting and yeah i admit i was pissed off and i hate them but i wouldnt hit them!"i raised my voice getting very defensive.

"however. i know yes you get upset you wouldnt hurt or act that way. and i know what my brother is like. which is why you are staying with us and we will adopt you as our own."uncle henry said firmly leaving me shock.

"you dont have to do that you know. ive got enough money in my pocket upstairs to buy a house and live by myself you dont have to go through all this just because im your neice im just saying i dont want to burden you when i can go by myself."i tell them

"colt you have been living with those people for 16 years doing what they tell you what everybody tells you. dont you think you have been alone long enough?"henry tells me.

"oh colt you would never be a burden to us. we love you like our own. if we didnt we would just let you live her but colt we want you to be our child. we want you to be part of our family...if thats what you want"helena say's kindly and honestly.

i sat there staring at them like they had gone crazy. why would they want me? im nothing special. im nothing at all. 'maybe your something to them' 'why would i be' 'because they have hearts and your in them'

"i um... can i have time to uh think. this is...alot to take in."i say slowly trying to collect my thoughts.

"of course. i understand. supper will be in an hour i will send martha to get you then."henry said i stood up walking towards the stairs when henry called my name causing me to turn back. "i just want you to know...my brother may have been stupid enough to look past you. but i look at you and i see you and i care about you we both care and thats never going to change." i feel my eyes start to sting at his words.

"thank you uncle henry. you have no idea how much i needed to hear that"i tell him before walking away. i got up to the room that i suppose was now mine. i could feel the tears coming. so i took a deep breath before letting it shakily come out. i put my hand on the back of my head walking back and forth trying to stop my self for crying. but eventually the tears over flowed and i collapsed to the floor pushing myself against the bottom of the bed. for the first time in almost 5 years i cried i actually had so much pain and reason to cry...

*Alex's p.o.v*

once we arrived at our small new house i picked my room but i didnt unpack. i made my bed got changed and went to bed i played with the band colt gave me and cried til i fell asleep. when i woke in the morning i didnt know where i was at first but then it all came back to me.

today was my first day at the new school. i was terrified. id never been the new kid but id seen how bad some kids get it. i dragged myself out of bed and went for a shower as i stepped out i heard dad going down stairs. as i dried off the band round my wrist kept catching my attention. and each time i felt a little stabbing pain in my chest. but i ignored it and went down stairs to meet dad who looked like he hadnt gotten any sleep at all.

"morning baby girl"he said tiredly.

"morning dad...did you get any sleep last night?" i ask before taking a bite of my apple.