I Needed to, I Had to

"511" (Part 2) [M]

"I'm not asking you to forgive me. I just want you to know that even all damaged, wounded as we are, as our couple is, as our family is you're the only one I love. You don't have any reason to feel insecure about your body because I love your heart before everything else.

-Sweet words, sweet words...

-You can tell it's just sweet words but I'm telling the truth."

I released her hands and laced my arms around her waist to pull her closer. She balance herself with her hands on my arms and as her lips were inches above mine, her wet half blond hair were sticking to my face. We looked at each other for a moment.

"Kiss me, if you know I love you." I told her and was waiting for her to do it but she didn't move. She stared at me and squeezed my arms.

"Still not convinced? What should I do to convince you?

-I don't know." She lowered her gaze but I knew what she wanted, I knew what I could do but she was injured and I didn't know to what extend her trauma was going.

"I know you want me to make love to you.

-So why don't you just do it?

-You're injured, Tiana. I could get your shoulder situation even worst with a wrong move.

-But...

-Plus, did you see how you reacted sooner on the bed.

-Goddamnit, JongIn! I'm not fine China! I'm not going to break because you touch me!

-I could break you and you know it.

-You can't break what is already in pieces JongIn!" She cupped my face.

"I'm already broken, there is no point of taking care of something broken you need to fix it! Just fix me, please." She whispered the last part. I couldn't take it anymore, no matter how much I had tried to deal with her any other way, I couldn't, she couldn't.

"If you tell me to stop I probably won't be able to.

-No matter what I say, don't."

She didn't have to tell me twice. My hands went down and mercilessly grabbed her butt cheeks. She jumped from surprise probably. I lowered her a bit so her lips would meet mines. I kissed her passionately, I explored her mouth with my tongue and she was kissing me back but I could feel that she was lost in my rhythm. She laced her arms around my neck but I pulled on her lower lip before going to attack on her neck. She throw her head back to let me more access to it. My left hand left her butt and slowly went up her body stroking her perfect skin and finding her breast. She moaned as I gently pinched her nipple and pulled on it.

I knew something was wrong when I let my other hand go to her womanhood and she started shaking. I got away from her neck and looked at her face. She was shutting her eyes as if she was about to cry.