i want to be me not your puppet

chapter 2 party!!

"pass the ball back!"i shout over to mike who looks around to find me quickly passing the ball and i kick it hard and score coach blows the whistle telling us thats us finished my team won 4-3 making

"colt where is your head? there were several of your team mates open for the pass but you missed it and almost lost the game"coach hamilton lectures me

"yeah sorry coach just uh thinking about the game in two weeks thinking over the plays and stuff"i lie smoothly the coach nods and dismisses us

"finally you all coming to the party tonight?" i asks the guys as we walk round to the gym

"hell yeah we are give us an couple hours an we are there!"greg shouts throwing his arm over my shoulder

"yeah well make sure you shower yeah you guys reek im going home to shower see ya later"i wave to them walking to my car my baby my mazda RX8 (A/N picture of it on the side i effing love this car!) yeah i got it for my 16th birthday only another 2 months until im 17 'yay me!'

*at colts house*

i step in to my house hearing my mum and dad arguing 'this is not good' 'no shit sherlock' i run towards the stairs hoping to avoid them

"colt get in here now"my dads voice sounds echos through the massive house 'oh shit what did i do now' i drag my feet as i walk into the sitting room

"we just recieved a very worrying phone call from coach hamilton he says your performance at practise today was appauling."my father stares at me

"uh yeah i was just a bit-"i start to try and explain but dad cuts me off

"you cant afford to be disstracted your almost finished high school and then you have collage and no collage is going to want a player who gets distracted and cant play the game...maybe we should cancel your party tonight i dont think you deserve one now"dad looks down at me dissapointment clear in his eyes

"no this party isnt for me its for the guys to lift they're spirits for the games to come...i know dad i'll try harder i didnt have very much for lunch maybe thats it" i lie to my dad

"fine now go get a shower your mother and i are leaving for new york in about half an hour we will be back in about a week try not and dissapoint me anymore"dad grunts walking out leaving me and my mum alone i glance at her she glares at me walking away 'fucking great'.

i run up to my room slamming the door behind me plugging my ipod in press play and skepta hold on blast through my speakers i quickly strip walking into my bathroom yes i have my own bathroom. i jump in the shower instantly relaxing just listening to my music

"whenever you feel like letting go and you've got your back against the wall hold on, hold on cause your goin to take a few low blows i know you can feel those broken bones just hold on,hold on cause you are undefeatable!" (A/N songs on the side listen to it i love it!")

*2hours later the party*

the music is blaring through the whole house people are dancing everywhere the hottub and the pool are packed i think the only rooms that are empty are mine and my parents. right now i have some girl wrapped round me i think her names megan or mandy or something like that i can smell the acohol off her not that im proberly any better but atleast i can handle my drink.

"colt baby i wuv you"the girl slurred causing me to push her off me

"yeah yeah whatever megan you see that guy over there i think he love you go dance with him"i point to some random unlucky dude

"its mellisa! and i will"the girl whos name is mellisa shouts at me going to dance with the random guy 'this party isnt as fun as i thought' 'why not ditch it then?' 'cause its my party and i live here why dont you get out my head?' 'cause iam you idiot' 'why do i always have arguments with myself when i know im going to lose' 'cause you stupid'

right then someone catches my eye is that? no it cant be...she said she wasnt coming.i stumble past people trying to reach her finally i get there she notices me

"i thought you werent coming?"i shout over the music

"im not fucking deaf! stop shouting and i only came to piss this girl off"alex shouts back but not as loud as me

"oh...well who is it maybe i can help?"i suggest suddenly feeling soberish

"this mellisa girl and yes actually you can she thinks you two are getting married and im going to stop you so i want to piss her off"alex looks around for mellisa

"oh yeah i just told her to dance with some dude and im not marrying her even if my life depended on it...come on dance with me we can make her jealous"i put on my hand hoping she will take it she looks at it for a second before sighing and grabbing it dragging me to the middle of the room i put my hands on her hips as we dance to jason derulo breathing

im not going to lie but having her body so close to mine was turning me on and the alchol was not helping i look at alex she has her eyes closed just moving to the music 'i wonder if she is enjoying this too' 'just kiss her' 'no il get slapped' 'pussy!' i feel someone grabbing my arm pulling me away from alex only to look and find mellisa looking at us pissed as hell

"what the fuck! i told you to stay away from her she is mine"mellisa screams at alex who bursts out laughing and pointing at mellisa "an you how could you cheat on me with this skank"mellisa shouts at me i dont know why but when she called alex a skank i felt the anger rush through me

"we were never going out it was a one time thing and alex is not a skank! so dont you dare call her that!"i shouted back at her. her eyes filling with tears but i didnt feel guilty as she ran off i just shrugged looking back at alex who was staring at me shocked

"what?"i ask her pulling her close to me dancing again she shakes her head

"uh nothing...thanks"alex tells me 'maybe i can finally get her to like me' 'careful your falling for her' no im not' 'yeah you are' 'shut up' "do you always argue with yourself?"

"uh sometimes quite annoying actually...how'd you know i do that."i ask her not even my friend knew about me arguing with me

"i know i do it to sometimes i know what to look for and you get this funny look its quite hilarious"alex laughs the room getting a bit crowded

"hey you want to get out of here its getting claustraphobic "i ask alex nods i pull her towards my room feeling little shocks run through my hand i grab a bottle of glens vodka on our way i shut my room door the room blocking out most of the noise

"i hope you know im not going to sleep with you it was just getting crowded im not going to try anything unless you want me to?" i smile as alexs walks round my room poking at things stopping at my trophy case looking at me

"i dont...you have so many trophys its unbelieveable"alex looks at them all i go stand beside her

"yeah they are pretty cool"i say uninterested

"you dont care do you?"i look at alex confuse"about the trophys i mean but why isnt winning trophys how you prove your the best"

"uh i guess so i dont really think about the trophys its just a bit of metal for running round a field chasing something" i shrug

"why do you play then if you dont care whats the point?"

"um...can you not ask me that please" i take a shot of vodka feeling it burn my throat

"oh so miss perfect has issues after all whatever i have got to go meeting my boyfriend see ya later"alex walks out my room 'whoa did she just say boyfriend?' 'i believe she did' 'she's straight?' 'well most of the time when a girl goes out with a boy yes they are straight' 'shut the fuck up!'i aruge with myself storming out of my room going to find some bimbo to make me forget...

==================================================================================

yeah dude i know its short but im still getting used to this story :)

comment vote! fan! x