The Wrong Way Around [Phan]

Chapter 42

Phil's Pov

I must admit, I'd been in a pretty bad mood since Dan and I had woken up. I suppose it was understandable, though, seeing as we had recently discovered that the past two and a half months of our lives had been a dream. Most people would probably be at least a bit upset upon discovering this, and we were no exception.

Dan had spent most of the day sulking in his room, and I was considering joining him, until he came out and sat on the couch beside me. I continued to stare at my phone for a moment before looking over at him and raising my eyebrows a bit, wondering what he wanted.

"What?" he asked, seeing me looking at him. "Am I not allowed to sit down beside my boyfriend?" I raised my eyebrows higher at that, and he sighed in defeat.

"Fine, fine, I came to talk to you. You're not going to like it, I can guarantee."

I nodded, knowing why he was about to say.

"I told you not to do anything stupid. I know it was just a dream, but we didn't know that at the time, and... you killed yourself anyway."

Not knowing how to respond, I just looked at the floor guiltily. Realizing I wasn't about to answer him, Dan went on to say, "I appreciate that you think I'm worth your life, don't get me wrong; it's just... I love you, Phil, and if anything ever happened to me and you did something to yourself because of it... I couldn't stand it."

I nodded, understanding what he meant, but not thinking he had quite understood what it was all like from my point of view. I didn't say anything, though, as he leaned over to plant a gentle kiss on my cheek and went back to his room.

I would try for him, I really would, but I couldn't guarantee I would be able to change.

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The next few days passed without anything too eventful happened. Dan threw the hamster out the window, since it had been a spy (according to the angel), and it was pretty much dead anyway. We met up with Chris and PJ one day, and discovered that they were now a couple. They still hadn't told anyone except us, though. We filmed a video for each of our channels, to make up for the missed months, and assured everyone that we'd make videos more often from now on.

Dan and I were happy, and for the first time in a while, life was back to normal. It didn't last long, though.

I was soon noticing that Dan was distancing himself from me a bit. He did it more and more with each passing day, and I was beginning to get worried. I told myself it was nothing, and that I was just imagining things, but when he turned down my request to sleep in his room for the night, I knew something was up. He never said no to that; he loved cuddling with me, and I with him, so it made no sense.

As I trudged into my own room and climbed into my cold, lonely bed, I made a mental note to ask him about all this tomorrow. I had to find out what was up with Dan.

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What a surprise, I haven't updated in a month. Sorry about that guys. Oh, and by the way, I basically know how the rest of the book is going to go, and I think it's nearly over. I apologize for how terrible and short this chapter is, by the way. But I've already started on the next chapter, so hopefully it will be up soon.

May you one day witness your OTP coming out! (If they're gay and haven't already, which tends to be the case)