The Wrong Way Around [Phan]

Chapter 5

Dan's Pov

Why had I done that? Now he would think that I felt the same way about him as he did about me! I wasn't even sure how I felt!

What would I tell him...

I couldn't make him upset again...
Then again, if I did say no, he would understand, he's my best friend!

Wouldn't he?

Knowing Phil, he would probably stay in his room for about four hours after something like that. I had four hours to figure out how I felt about him, how to tell him how I felt and tell him how I felt about this whole ordeal.

By the end of the four hours, all I had decided was that I needed to think about it. Not exactly a very satisfactory response, but better than nothing.

Then Phil walked out. And he was still smiling. He walked right passed me and automatically went to sit on the couch, then he turned around to face me. I walked over and sat down as well, and his smile got bigger.

I felt so bad knowing it was about to disappear completely.

I opened my mouth and began...

Phil's Pov

I had woken up after about three and a half hours, and spent about another half and hour just lying there and thinking. Mostly about Dan.

Then I figured I should probably get up, so I went out and passed right by Dan, then sat on the couch and turned around to look at him. Still smiling.

As he walked over and sat down beside me, I felt my smile getting bigger.

Then he started talking, and I felt it getting smaller and smaller with every word.

He didn't know.

He had to think.

"Phil, I'm so, so sorry. I know you were already feeling miserable and then I had to go in and muck everything up by saying I liked you when I didn't even know if I did. You're probably so confused and disappointed and I feel so bad about it. But it makes me so upset and mad, because you are feeling worse than me, my best friend, and I feel so bad about everything. Two days, ok? That's all I need, two days."

And then I silently watched as he got up and left to his room.

And he was right, I was upset, but it wasn't because he wasn't sure. I had known he would probably need to think things over. I had known he was or had been straight. I had known everything that he would probably say.

Except for one thing.

It had upset me the most that he had called me his best friend.

I knew I was his best friend, but after all the dreaming about him coming out here and calling me his boyfriend...
I went back to my room to do some thinking myself and continue crying.

But this time Dan didn't come in to help.