The Wrong Way Around [Phan]

Chapter 10

Phil's Pov

As I made my way back to our apartment, I realized that it would probably be very difficult to explain to Dan what I had been doing these past few hours.

I had just been driving around, really, stuck in another existential crisis, thinking over my whole life and whether now would be a good time to end it. But as I had stood on the edge of the bridge, ready to jump into the icy water, I realized I couldn't leave Dan. Not now, not ever. So I had slowly climbed back off the ledge and fallen down in a heap on the bridge to cry.

After probably two hours or so of this, I remembered my note. Dan would be terrified, if he had found it. So I hopped back in my car and drove, maybe a bit faster than necessary, back to the apartment.

All I could think of was Dan as I drove past a large truck leaving the gas station to my left. As the truck pulled out, I lost my hold on the wheel and veered towards it. I didn't even have time to scream before the impact.

Everything was black. I was floating in nothingness, going wherever I wanted even though there was nowhere there, if that made any sense. And somehow the complete blackness was getting darker.

I could here shouting, but it sounded so far away, like someone was shouting at me from the top of a mountain. And then the sounds became clearer, and the darkness lighter.

Sirens. Screaming. But still slightly faded...

I could just barely make out a quiet, constant beeping noise. The darkness was disappearing, and quite quickly now.

But I liked my darkness, I didn't want it to leave, right now it was the only thing I had. Except...

Dan.

But the darkness was returning now, and too fast for me to make it go away. I was sinking now, no more flying, not even floating. Just falling through never ending abyss of darkness.

And then it stopped. Everything, for a split second, just stopped. And then there was nothing. Nothing moving, nothing going, nothing stopping. Just nothing.

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When I woke up I didn't know where I was. I could hear breathing to my left, so I turned my head to see who was there but abruptly turned it back with a small cry of pain, as it felt like a million knives had just stabbed my neck.

As I felt that one bit of pain, all the pain seemed to hit me at once. My head, my neck, my leg, both my arms, my chest, my back, everything. And then it all seemed to fade as Dan poked his beautiful face over the side of the bed to look at me.

And we stared at each other. Just stared at each other, brown into blue, until Dan turned his head a bit and I saw a drop of water fall from his face.

A tear. Dan was crying.

"D-Dan?" I whispered, my voice hoarse. He turned again to look at me. Brown into blue.

"Why a-are you c-cryin-ing?"

He just stared at me like I was crazy, then said "you're dying, Phil. Everyone thinks you're going to die... everyone but me. Please don't die."

He sounded like a five year old talking to his dying mother, but I smiled at him anyway and promised him I wouldn't. I promised him I wouldn't leave him if he didn't leave me. That I wouldn't die as long as he didn't let this kill him.

By now there was more darkness. I no longer liked this darkness, I just wanted to be with Dan. But the darkness didn't seem to like that idea. It was swarming from the edges of my vision, blocking out more and more of Dan's face...

Until it was all darkness, again. And there was nothing I could do to make it go away. I took one last look at Dan before giving in to that horrible darkness once more...

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Mwa ha ha! I'm so sorry I had to leave it like that but apparently I'm now not allowed on electronics past 9:00 (I'm already breaking the rules) so I can't make this chapter any longer. :(

I'll try to update this more frequently in case anyone is actually reading it! Have to go!

May you one day attend Dan and Phil's wedding! (In 2022)