The Wrong Way Around [Phan]

Chapter 34

Phil's Pov

(Sorry for the lack of pov switches, it will probably change sometime soon) The wind continued to swirl around me, whipping my hair into my face, as I looked down at the rushing water below me. I stuck my hands out by my sides, relishing the thought that I could just fall and never have to care or worry about anything, ever again.

Soon after the ambulances had left, I had made my way here. At the time, I had been planning to not go back, but I now found myself thinking about what I would say to Dan when I went to the hospital, a clear sign that, deep down, I wasn't ready for this. But still, I stood there.

There was nothing and no one stopping me, but I still didn't let the wind push me over. No matter how much I wanted to just be able to let the sound of the waves sing me into eternal sleep, I knew I couldn't.

I closed my eyes for another moment, letting myself rock back and forth between the raging water and the safety of the bridge. Finally, I reopened my eyes and carefully stepped back onto the platform behind me.

I sighed, knowing that was my best chance to do exactly what I had always wanted, but I still had that feeling, deep in my heart, telling me I needed to go see Dan.

Slowly, I started making my way to the hospital. I shivered, pulling my hoodie around me to protect myself against the freezing night, my hair still being flung every which way.

I was soon opening the doors and stepping into the warmth of the hospital, where I was greeted by a swarm of doctors and nurses. Finally, one managed to shove their way through the crowd, and asked me, "are you Philip Lester?"

Startled by the crowd that had apparently been waiting for me, I shakily nodded my head, and the short woman said, "this way, please!" and started shoving people out of the way again to get to the hallway.

"W-why am I f-following you, again?" I asked her as we both rushed past rows and rows of white doors, down the never ending hallway of sickness, sterilization and death.

She didn't respond, but after a few more minutes, she finally stopped and turned back around to face me. "It's your boyfriend, Daniel Howell. The doctors managed to stop the bleeding in time, he's actually even awake. He was asking for you, you know, even before we woke him up. Shouting your name, saying "don't do it!" and all this crazy stuff." she shrugged a bit, then continued, a bit more solemnly, "um, there's just one slight problem... you know what, you go on in, I'll let Rory tell you..."

Nervously, I pushed the door open to see Dan laying there, frowning, while Rory stood beside him, explaining something. As soon as he saw me walk in, though, Dan's face lit up with happiness and excitement. "Phil!" he exclaimed. "Um, Rory," he turned to address the nurse, "do you mind leaving, just for a moment, please."

He looked at us both skeptically, then said, "you have four minutes, I can't leave Dan without supervision for any longer than that." He left, and Dan looked back at me and tilted his head a bit.

"You nearly jumped," he said simply.

"I didn't," I replied, grabbing a chair and sitting down next to his bed.

"You did. I dreamt it, but I know it wasn't a dream. You were standing right in the edge of that bridge, about to throw yourself in."

"Yes," I said. "I was standing on the edge of the bridge. But that doesn't mean I was going to jump."

I leaned in a bit closer to him, and, right before my lips met Dan's, Rory decided to come back in. I quickly moved my face away from Dan's, and tried to act as though nothing had been happening.

"Right," Rory told us, his face slightly redder than before,"Dan, I've got someone to come in and watch you while I tell Phil the... news." His expression grim, Dan nodded, and told me to follow Rory.

As I stepped out into the hallway with him, I asked, "so, what's this "news"?" I was quite a bit more cheerful than earlier, now that I knew Dan was alright.

However, Rory's expression remained grave.

"Phil," he said. "Dan has cancer."

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So, was the cliffhanger from chapter 32 or this one the worst? Oh, sorry about the 32 cliffhanger, by the way, I forgot to publish the chapter after it when I finished writing it. *Braces myself for the rage in the comments because of everything I've done* Anyway, I have no idea when the next chapter will be done. Hopefully soon, but no promises.

May you one day not have to wait a week or more for me to publish a new chapter after a cliffhanger!