The Wrong Way Around [Phan]

Chapter 2

I decided to make a video that day. But just as I got ready to start, I broke down again and started crying. Dan came in to see what was wrong, just like he used to, but I asked him to leave me for now.

I felt bad after because the look in his beautiful chocolate brown eyes had just been so hurt. I knew he was trying to help me, but I just needed some time to myself right now. Besides, he's already done so much for me. I've put him through so much chaos that he wouldn't have had to go through if it hadn't  been for me.

And I know he didn't want me to, but I had to repay him, and it was killing me that I had no idea how. And he was still having to help.

Dan's Pov

I had been busy looking at very important stuff on my computer, when I heard a small thump. Oh, who am I kidding, I was just scrolling through Tumblr, although I suppose that's kind of important.

But not as important as my best friend. I put my computer down and went to see what had happened, but when I opened his door and saw him sitting on the floor crying, he just told me to leave.

I of course obliged, but I was kind of hurt because I had only been trying to help.

Phil had just told me last night that after having lied to me about not having it anymore nearly seven months ago, he still had depression.

In my videos I had tried to hide it for him by pretending I was the one having the existential crisis and I was the depressed loser, and I had lied to all my fans about myself for Phil. I couldn't go back on what I had been saying about myself for months, though, and people seemed to be enjoying my videos anyway, so I had continued to act that way, for my sake and for Phil's!
And he still thought that it was all for him and that he didn't deserve the help because all he was was a burden and a waste of space.

Not that he is! He just has some trouble seeing what an amazing persons he is.
If it weren't for him, I would probably be in the same state he's in right now. I don't know about you, but I think that that's more payment than I could ever ask for.