The Wrong Way Around [Phan]

Chapter 3

Phil's Pov

My eyes were still a bit red, but other than that no one but Dan would be able to tell I had been crying. I loved how Dan could always tell how I was feeling like that, but I supposed this time it was pretty obvious anyway.

I could hear Dan in his room so I decided to go out and watch some TV. The Doctor might be able to help me out a bit.

I'd been watching for about thirty seven minutes when Dan came in and sat on the opposite end of the couch.
"Oh, I love this episode!", he said excitedly. But he hated this one, I knew, he always complained when I watched it.

Just how stupid did he think I was?
But then he turned and smiled at me again and I lost all my anger towards him. I of course knew that to him we were just friends, but I secretly wished we could be so much more.

Should I tell him? What if it completely ruined our friendship? What if he said no and I got too depressed?

What if he said yes?

I took a deep breath and turned to face him. Dan seemed to be able to do this so easily in all the Phan fictions I had read. Why was it so hard in real life?
I paused the TV and he turned around to look at me too.

"Um, Dan... you know what I told you the other day..." I began.

"Yes...?" he said, raising an eyebrow

"Well, uh, that might not have been the only secret I didn't tell you..."

Now he was interested. He would do anything to help me, even if it hurt him. I loved him so much.

"Go on Phil. What's this other secret?"
I said it all a bit too quickly, I think.

"Imightpossiblybealittletiybitgay", I muttered.

"Come again?"

Now I was upset. I didn't want to have to say this a second time. So instead of saying it, I shouted.

"I'M GAY, OK DAN?! HAPPY NOW?!"

He just stared at me with a stunned look on his face. Clearly he hadn't been expecting that.

But he was about to get more surprised.

"And I like you", I said as I moved just slightly closer to him on the couch then walked away into my room, locking the door behind me.

Just before it closed, I heard a shout from Dan.

"Wait! Phil! I-"

I didn't get to hear the rest because I was back on the floor sobbing.

Dan's Pov

I felt my heart skip a beat when he said that. I wished he had been a bit calmer, but oh well, at least now I knew.

But why did I suddenly feel so happy? Why did it make me so excited that Phil was gay? It's not like I loved him or wanted to be with him or anything, I was straight.

Wasn't I?