"Vic, wake up." I hear someone yelling but I just groan tightening my grip on Kellin's waist as he stirs.
"Vic, it's Mike." My eyes shoot open at the mention of his name so I sit up rapidly looking at Mark who's standing at my door with an urgent look on his face.
"What happened?" I ask fearing the worst.
"I think he's waking up." Mark exclaims and for a minute I can't move, or breathe, or do anything. It's almost as if reality has detached itself from me.
It's Kellin's touch and his voice that brings me back.
"Vic, go. Everything's going to be okay." He whispers and I nod giving him a frightened look.
I quickly get out of bed and rush to Mike's room where there are nurses surrounding his bed.
"Hun, sit still for a second. You're alright, you're safe." I hear a nurse saying calmly.
"Vic, I want Vic." I hear my brother crying in a raspy voice. Tears well up in my eyes. Is he really calling for me?
I push a nurse out of the way. Surely they don't all need to be here. I get a clear view of my brother who's fighting to sit up but the nurses are pushing him back down. He has a terrified look on his face. I grab his hand that's lashing out and he turns to me.
"I'm here Mikey. I'm here." He relaxes a bit and the nurses do what they need to, removing numerous tubes from him and other stuff.
Mike stares into my eyes seeming frightened and confused.
"Can you excuse us?" I ask the nurses and they nod, seeming to be done with everything.
They leave, closing the door behind them.
"V-vic? Where am I? What happened? I'm so confused." Mike asks tearing up.
"Hey, it's alright, calm down. You're in your room. You've been in a coma and you've just woken up." I explain and Mike blinks a few times.
"A coma? For how long? Why?" He asks.
"About two years now. You tried to kill yourself. Do you remember that?" I ask trying to push back the tears that are entering my eyes as I mention it.
Mike thinks for a minute before his face changes to one of regret.
"Oh." He whispers before nodding. "Yeah, I remember. I'm sorry."
"Hey, no, don't apologize. I should be the one apologizing. I'm so sorry I let them hurt you Mike, I'm sorry that I never stood up for you. I'm just so sorry." I cry letting the tears stream down my cheeks.
Mike stays silent for a minute looking around the room at everything but me. When he finally looks at me, tears are threatening to spill from his eyes.
"The last thing I said to you was 'I hate you'. You've lived with that for two years, it could have been more. I don't hate you Vic. Nothing I said that day meant anything. None of that was your fault. I was just scared, because you found out, about my cutting." Mike explains and I give him a hopeful look.
"You don't hate me?" I ask my voice cracking.
He shakes his head and squeezes my hand.
"Of course not. You're my big brother. I love you. And despite the fact that you ignored what was happening at school, you still always tried to make sure I was okay when we were at home." Mike explains.
"But that's the thing Mikey, you weren't okay." I croak out and Mike looks down sighing.
"That's not on you Vic. Even if you had stood up for me, I don't think they would have stopped. I think they would have just brought you into it. I don't know what I would have done if you got hurt."
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Kellin doesn't exactly live an easy life. His Mom is an alcoholic, he self-harms and on top of all that he gets bullied daily. All Vic wants to do is help but Kellin doesn't want help. And Vic has some secrets of his own but they're all hidden behin...