faded

15.0 - visions of the past

(flashback chapter)

"Ana?" I hear him call me in a whisper. Moments later, I feel his arms wrap around me tightly. "Wake up, my angel. I'm so lonely without you."

My heart quite literally skips, it's impossible to keep the smile off my face as I open my sleepy eyes.

I had taken a short nap, but I knew I'd be up in no time. This is the kind of wake up call I could go for every single day of my life.

He smiles at me like a child, his eyes crinkle and his nose scrunches up, the dearest expression all for me. Because of me.

"I'm up," I kiss his cheek, "what have you been doing?"

Zayn squeezes me tight, putting one of his hands on my neck and letting it rest there. "Looking through old case files. Talking to Liam and Harry about you."

I blush, causing him to sigh contently at me. I'm not sure what's been going on between us. Ever since I moved in, we had been in this unbreakable bubble. Everyday was better than the last. Every moment was better than the last. How was it possible for me to contain all this happiness that threatened to spill out of my chest, when I had never known it before?

I sorta watched him for a bit. He was so beautiful, too beautiful, unreal because he loved me.

"Oh yeah? What have you been saying about me?"

Zayn avoids looking at me, smiling mischievously. "I told them that we were gonna get married. They think we're insane, but I sorta like it."

I giggle, "Me too. This is all so new to me."

Zayn gets serious, his palm resting on my cheek. I feel how warm he is as he cuddles closer, allowing me to wrap my arms around him.

"It's never gonna go away."

I know what he's talking about immediately. "You think so?"

"I know so. Sometimes, you just know. I knew when I saw you on the staircase."

I remember that night. Some parts of it seemed blurry even though it was just a few weeks ago. I remember everything after Zayn, like the time I spent before wasn't worth keeping in my memories.

"I think I did, too."

He presses a small peck to my lips, I can feel him smiling and for some reason, it just makes me weak.

I never expected to fall for him like this and so quickly. I feel guilty for having bad intentions, but when I'm with him all that melts away. I don't know. I want to be different for him and when he's close, I can feel myself changing into someone better. I just wanna be the girl he wants, change is inevitable. So what if I let him change me? It'll all be worth it in the end, right?