Sunday
8:00 AM
G:
Hindi ko namalayan nakatulog ako na hawak hawak yung phone ko, at namamaga pa ata' yung mga mata ko. Andaming messages and missed calls niya. Pero minamabuti ko munang hindi mag reply. Siguro mas mabuti munang manahimik sa isang tabi. Wala ako masyado sa mood ngayon, gumawa ng kung ano. Mabuti nalang I have no appointments today. I'll spend this day for myself.
I've decided to write a new lyrics and bring my guitar in the studio. I'll spend my whole time in writing a new song for her. This is the only way I know, how I can release myself from any sad and sentimental feeling I have for her. She doesn't have to know na this new song of mine is for her. She just have to hear it, maybe one day, if fate decides that we're not going to cross our roads again.
i'm not being hopelessly romantic. In music, there's no objections, no limitations and I can freely expressed how deep is my feelings with her.
I would always tell myself I'll be very careful in picking the kind of love I would fall into. Pero bakit ganon' minsan hindi nasusunod yung standards na gusto ko. I guess, you can't really argue with fate. There are times I would think I already knew myself for sure, but I usually end up finding new things about myself in love. I said, I wouldn't be like this and that but then again, I would eat my words at the very end. Anyway, So i'm here at the studio. I have no tapings today. It's Eric who's going to do the mixing and recording of each tracks. I'm planning to create another acoustic song. I already have some draft of my new lyrics. For sure i'll sing this from heart.
Eric : ok, guitar part muna G. so I want you to focus ok?
G : I'm ready. let's do this!
Got my new photos from the studio by the way. so I could post it later. All my updates are work related or by just answering our fans messages. Other than that, nothing else.
If there's one thing that I can use for any heartbreaks? That will be what everybody knows as"diversion", kasi hindi madali mag isip ng mag isip ng taong mahal mo. So do I have any choice? Wala. But to successfully divert myself from anything painful. Hindi masaya mag pretend na masaya but pag nasasaktan ka ba mas pipiliin mo ba malunod sa sobrang lungkot na feeling? yan yung mga nasasabi ko sa sarili ko. Kanya kanyang ways ng pag cope up, it so happen this works for me. I was greatly comforted by the music I'm making. Mas masarap gumawa ng music yung galing sa puso.
11:00 AM
R:
I woke up really late. And there's only One word in my head. IT HURTS.
So, I immediately took my phone from the table near me to check if she had replied to all my messages. Or if she even tried calling me. Pero wala. As in wala talaga. I sighed. Maybe, she's really serious about all of this. Lots of closest to me know, I don't chase. I never chase. I would usually be the one being chased. I sighed again. I don't know why I go crazy about her like this, I'm not like this. Not even with Jay. So, I got up. Went downstairs, on our kitchen. Took a cup of coffee. I was thinking of taking a run today but sheesh! tanghali na pala. And while I was drinking my coffee. Nag flash back yung face ni G while she was looking at my ring. And sadly, I remember, I saw she's wearing the ring I gave her. It made my morning sad. I looked at my left ring finger. Why am I not happy? Usually when you receive a ring with someone who loves you very much dapat masayang masaya ka and proud to show it with everyone. Pero hindi ganon ang nararamdaman ko.
I slowly removed the ring on my left ring finger. My actions says otherwise. I've read one of her tweets last time, it says...
"Don't find love. Let love find you."
I thought, pag siguro yung love ang nakahanap sayo, hindi siya temporary feeling. Puedeng permanent mo na siyang maramdaman at di basta basta mag ffade away.
I've decided to stay quiet in the meantime. Not until I'm feeling okay again, being distant to G is not what I'm used to. Not forget to mention, sa isang love story there will always be alot of barriers. This is the most tough part. Not really, in the mood today to say anything online."
FAST FORWARD >>>>>>>
After 1 WEEK
G:
No talks. No messages. No calls. ☹️
Same hectic schedule Routine.
checks on her updates online, almost everyday.
R:
No viber. No talks. No calls.
Same busy schedule. Partying & going to events.
checks on her updates online too almost every other hour of everyday. ☹️
