After 2

Chapter 109.

"I don't know.." I groan.

"Why not? You need to stop being such a pussy. You're moping around like a fucking baby." He tells me and I glare at him. If I had gotten any sleep last night I would reach across and choke him.

"I am not." I defend.

"You so are dude, you need to get wasted and laid tonight. I'm sure there will be some easy girls there."

"I don't need to get laid." I don't want anyone but her.

"Well come on, drive over to Zed's. If you don't want to get laid then at least come have some drinks." He says.

"Don't you ever want to do more?" I ask and he looks over at me like I have grown horns.

"What?"

"You know, doesn't it get old just partying and hooking up with different girls all the time?"

"Woah woah.. this is worse than I thought. You got it bad man."

"No I don't. I'm just saying. Doing the same old shit all the time gets old." He doesn't know how enjoyable it is to lay in bed and make Tessa laugh, he doesn't know how fun it is to hear her ramble on about her favorite novels, to have her swat at me when I try to grope her. It is much better than any party that he has ever been or will ever go to.

"She really did a number on you. That's some shit isn't it?" He laughs.

"No she didn't." I lie.

"Sure.." He throws the remainder of his joint out of my car window.

"She's single though right?" He asks and I grip the wheel.

"I'm just fucking around." He laughs. "I just wanted to see how pissed you would get." He laughs even harder.

"Fuck off." I grumble and head to Zed's.

Tessa's POV.

"Your room is right down the hall from our suite." Kimberly tells me when we arrive at the hotel.

The Four Seasons in Seattle is the nicest hotel I have ever seen. Kimberly practically drags me down the hall while I try to take in all the beautiful details.

"Here is your room, after you unpack we will meet in our suite to go over the itinerary for this weekend even though I already know you have. You should change because I really think you should wear that dress tonight when we go out." She winks and leaves me alone in my hotel room.

The differences between the hotel I have been staying in and this one are vast. One of the paintings in the lobby here probably cost more than the entire hotel where I stayed last night. The view from my window is incredible, Seattle is such a beautiful city. I can imagine myself living here, in a high rise apartment with a job at Seattle Publishing or even Vance Publishing now that they are opening an office here. That would be amazing. I wish I could fast forward.

I change into a black pencil skirt and a lilac purple shirt after I hang up my clothes for the weekend. I am excited for the conference this evening and tomorrow but nervous to go out. I know I need to have some fun but I still feel empty from the damage Hardin has caused in my life.

By the time I get to Kimberly and Christian's suite, it is five o'clock. I know we have to be downstairs in the banquet room by six.

"This room is.. wow." I say as Kimberly leads me inside.

Their hotel suite has it's own living room and a separate sitting room. It looks bigger than my mother's entire house.

"It's okay." Christian laughs and pours himself a glass of what looks like water.

"We ordered some room service so we can all eat in here before we head downstairs, it should be here any minute." She says and I smile and thank her. I didn't realize how hungry I am until she mentioned food. I haven't eaten at all today.

"You ready to be bored out of your mind?" Trevor asks as he appears from the sitting room.

"It won't be boring to me." I smile and he laughs.

"I may not want to leave this place." I add and he smiles.

"Me either." He says.

"Same." Kim says and Christian shakes his head.

"That could be arranged love." He puts his hand on her back and I look away from the intimate gesture.

"We should just move the main office here and all move." Kimberly jokes, I think she is joking at least.

"Smith would love Seattle." Christian says.

"Smith?" I ask then I remember Christian has a son.

"My son, it's an odd name I know." He laughs and leans into Kimberly. It must be so nice to be in a loving, trusting relationship.

"It's lovely." I smile. It really is a nice name, different but not too crazy.

"We may just have to look into it." He tells her and she smiles before kissing him on the cheek.

Trevor has the same look of adoration on his face  that I feel inside for them. I also envy Kimberly, a harmful envy but envy none the less. She has a man in her life that obviously cares for her and will do anything to make her happy. She is lucky.

After we eat we head downstairs and I am thrown into a large conference room full of people who love books, it's heaven. I meet a lot of interesting people and take a lot of notes.

"Network. Network. Network. It's all about networking." Christian tells me and introduces me to almost every single person in the room. The best part is that he doesn't introduce me as his intern and he treats me like an adult, they all do.

...

Hardin's POV.

"Well well well, look who it is." Molly rolls her eyes when Jace and I walk into Zed's apartment.

"Drunk already?" I say to her.

"So? It's past five." She says and I shake my head at her.

"Have a shot with me." She suggests and grabs a bottle of brown liquor off of the counter and two shot glasses.

"Fine. Only one." I groan and she smiles before filling the small glasses up.

Ten  minutes later I find myself looking through the gallery on my phone. I wish I would have let her take more pictures of us together so I would have more to look at now. I do have it bad, like Jace said. I feel like I am slowly losing my mind over her and the most fucked up part is, I don't care how crazy I am being as  long as it helps me get closer to her again.

"I will be happy." She said. I know I didn't make her happy but I could. At the same time, it isn't fair for her for me to keep bothering her. I got her car fixed for her because I didn't want her to have to worry about doing it herself. I am glad that I did because I wouldn't have known she was going to Seattle if I wouldn't have called Vance to make sure she would have a ride to work. Why wouldn't she tell me? That prick Trevor is with her right now when I should be. I know he likes her and I could see her falling for him. He is exactly what she needs, they are a lot alike. Unlike her and I. He could make her happy. The thought pisses me off and makes me want to slam his head through a window but maybe I need to give her space and give her a chance to be happy. She made it clear yesterday that she can't forgive me.

"Molly!" I call from the couch.

"What?"

"Bring me another shot." I tell her and she smiles.

(Hessa or Tressa?)