Attraction

Part Twenty Five

Aila didn't know what to think as the video ended.

She watched it again, trying to make sense of it.

First, she had gone to some research center with her soulmates and something happened that made her mates want to stay away from her.

She concluded the article she read had to do with what happened between them.

Can it be about how cold she can be? How sometimes she doesn't want to care for anything? But she's better now, because she cares for her mother. She loves her mother. She's cared about helping her with her cancer.

And she knows she only began to go out with Brian for a game, her entertainment, but she fell in love. She changed so much because of his patience and love.

Second, she took the video as soon as she came back from going out. This guy, who assaulted her in a way, invited her to go out with dancers.

She said they work for her soulmates.

Were they some type of performers? Is that why they were going to so many cities?

Yeah she said asshole dude is on tour with them.

So they are some type of performers.

And she's concluded this also started out like a game to her. But she underestimated the bond pulling her in and slowly changing her mind.

She smiled at this.

Good. She deserved to be going crazy with how her soulmates were making her feel. This Aila was stupid to think she could win over her soul bond. She knows deep down she cares. It's just life has made her not want to feel her emotions.

Third, she bonded with three soulmates! Just how many did she have?

There was also name: Sejin.

She saw there was another video.

She immediately played it.

She was at another hotel room. She looked into the camera, her eyes looked puffy and tired. She looked exhausted.

"I think... I think I figured out why I feel like this. I felt it again yesterday. That pressure in my chest. That feeling of something breaking. It happened when I went and told Sejin if the bodyguards could stop following me since I was going out to met Brian and the others. He said yes. They... they were also present in the room. And I felt it again. But I... I have tried.."

She took a deep breath before starting again.

"When I tried to talk to them the day after we visited the research, before the Orlando show and the bodyguards appeared for the first time and told me I couldn't come near them, that's the first time I felt this heart break. I don't know how to explain it. It just, I feel something broke, something took a hit. Deep down I felt humiliated and alone for them not defending me against the body guards. But I acted like I was just pissed off my tears didn't seemed to move them. They have each other while I'm here. That's the first time I felt this." 

Aila touched her chest in the screen.

"When I sneaked into the waiting room at the airport, and I got attacked and dragged out of the room, I felt it again. I felt like something broke a little more and I thought I heard glass break. When I left that room to go out with Brian, my chest, my heart, this pain is increasing."

The Aila in the video began to cry and sob, her hand coming to quickly wipe her tears away.

"I think, I think my bond is breaking. I did research on damaged bonds. It doesn't just happen, it's a process where both parties hurt each other until a culminating point occurs and they break. This process is too painful for the soul so the body eventually shuts down. It's not common for people to feel the bond breaking, actually you're not supposed to feel it, but because we have a responsive bond and I'm the door I feel i...."

Aila quickly paused the video.

Her bond was a responsive bond, like the one with the man that killed his soulmate? Oh my god! Just how did this happen? What does that mean? Did she tried to kill one of her soulmates? Is that why the bodyguards stopped her from being near them?

No she wouldn't. She knows she wouldn't. She now believes she might have messed with the bond but not, not that.

What the fuck was going on?

With trembling fingers she pressed play again.

"It. And I don't know what to do.... I've tried to talk to them but ever since the airport I gave up. I sent them a message today but they haven't even looked at it and I have the bodyguards following me around. So I've decided to just make everyone's lives better and stay in the hotel room to work in finishing my classes. Seeing Brian and the others helped me a lot, but now.... I don't know. This pain in my chest is killing me and, it's just, how can they ignore this? Is it just me feeling the intensity that's happening? Are they are scared of me? I didn't, I guess it really is my fault for seeing if I could transfer feelings in the bond and purposely bonding with Seokjin."

She was silent as she wiped her nose with a tissue.

"I guess I'm just going to ignore this for a few more days. I've been focusing on my classes. I'm looking forward to Yoongi dropping his mixtape tomorrow and MetLife is the day after that. They told me they were going talk to me once we got to New York so I just need to calm down and wait till we finally talk. I think I can do that. They didn't tell me if we were going to talk before or after the shows so..... doesn't matter. This pain is showing me how much I actually care for them and it's more than I thought."

Aila saw herself in the screen calm her breathing down, pushing all her feelings aside, like she always has had to do, and disconnect herself so she could function.

"Just two more days and I get to see my soulmates on stage."

And then the video ended.