Samsara of the Divine Punishment

Chapter 20

Chapter XX : I am Rana

I gasp for a huge amount of air as if my life depends on it. Mabilis ang bawat pag hinga ko habang walang tigil sa pagtulo ang masaganang luha mula sa mga mata ko. I heard a sound of door being opened. Nang ibato ko ang tingin roon ay tuluyan na akong tumangis ng malakas.

I saw Sage standing with his wide eyes staring straight at me. His expression says how much he never expected me to be in where I'm currently is. Kahit ako! Kahit ako ay hindi ko inaasahang matagpuan ang sarili kong nakayuko sa mesa ng student council room. Na para bang normal lang akong nagpapahinga mula sa tambak na gawaing ipinagagawa niya sa'kin. I also noticed how the room is slightly dark, it must be night already.

Sinikap kong tumayo kahit na sobra ang panginginig ng mga tuhod ko. Even my hands are shaking right now. Wala sa sariling bumaba ang tingin ko sa nanginginig kong mga kamay. It is completely same as before. No open wounds and bruises. My body is completely fine--Soheila's body is completely fine.

I died.

Muli akong napaupo dahil sa sobrang panghihina. Naramdaman ko ang mabilis na pag damay ni Sage sa gilid ko. Sinubukan niya akong alalayan ngunit mabilis kong sinampal papalayo ang kan'yang kamay. I stared at him as if he's the one at fault of my demise.

"Don't touch me, I hate it here. It's all your goddamn fault why I'm still here and why I fucking died! Why did you send me that micro spirit huh? Did you intructed it to do the explosions? Is it you who pulled me back in this fucking place?!" puno ng galit na hiyaw ko rito. I saw confusion flashed through his golden eyes but he remained silent. Gamit ang nanginginig kong mga kamay ay kinuha ko ang isang kamay ni Sage. Hinalikan ko ang likuran ng kan'yang palad at humahagulgol na idinikit ito sa aking noo. Na tila ba isa siyang diyos na makakatulong sa akin.

"You can't do this to me, you can't tie me with this body! I can't leave my father, please, I'm begging you Sage. Use your power, send me back, I can't leave my father. I'm the only one he has, I can't stay here, I want to go back. I'm not Soheila, I'm Rana. I don't belong to this world, I am just a mere mortal, I'm not suited to be in here. Please," pagmamakaawa ko habang walang tigil ang mga pagtangis na kumakawala sa bibig ko. I closed my eyes, I'm hopeless.

Svetrana died, I died. I no longer exist in the realm where my father is. I will never see him again, I will never have the chance to hug him again. Even just for the last time. I left him without even saying a proper goodbye. I left him with the same pain my mother brought him that up until now, it's restricting him from finding real happiness.

I felt a gentle movement from Sage, seconds passed and I felt his arms wrapped around me. Dala ng sobrang panghihina ay hinayaan ko ang sariling yumakap pabalik sa kan'ya at itago ang mukha sa kan'yang dibdib. Sa paraang ito ay naiibsan ang sakit ng katotohanang wala na ang buhay ko kung saan makakasama ko ang Daddy ko.

I continued to cry and grieve in his arms as if he is the only person I have now, I cried like a scared little girl until I exhausted myself and lost my conciousness.

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Nagising ako dahil sa marahang haplos ng malambot na palad sa aking noo. I slowly opened my eyes and saw a set of concerned and worried eyes staring straight at me. Portia gave me a kind smile.

"She's awake," Portia uttered. Muli akong pumikit ng mariin bago dahan dahang bumangon mula sa aking pagkakahiga. Naramdaman ko ang pag alalay sa'kin ni Portia upang maayos akong makaupo. I'm in the familiar room of infirmary with Portia and the others. Mabilis na hinanap ng paningin ko si Sage ngunit hindi ko ito natagpuan kahit saang sulok ng silid.

"How are you feeling?" tanong ni Mishka na ngayon ay nakaupo sa upuan katabi si Edzel na kasalukuyan ring nasa direksyon ko ang buong atensyon.

"I'm okay," hindi siguradong sagot ko dahil maski ako ay hindi pa alam kung sapat na ba ang pagproseso sa lahat ng utak ko.