Secretly in Pain (Isabela Series #1)

Wakas

"Ayesha, lapitan mo nga si Angelo. Diba, crush mo siya?"

I don't know why but I got angry while hearing those words. For goodness sake, they're still kids. What do they know about having crush on someone? Can't they just focus on learning how to write their names? Where's their parents anyway?

"Crush ko siya pero nahihiya akong lapitan siya"

Magkasalubong na ang kilay ko matapos marinig ang mahinang boses na yun. She sounds soft. I like--no scratch that..I love listening to her voice but I don't like what she says. So it's true, huh? I want to go to her and tell her that she must not have a fucking crush on someone. I don't want to startled her that's why I need to control my fucking emotions.

Khairo, she's still a kid. I need to remind myself everytime.

"Ayesha, crush mo daw si Nico. Sabi din nila umamin ka sa kaniya"

"Crush mo nga rin daw si Alex eh pati si Luke"

The fuck?!

Bakit ang dami naman yata?

She's still 8 years old for goodness sake! Bakit ang dami naman niyang crush?

I'm a teen who's liking a kid! I want to scold myself. I need to calm my self down. I don't want to scare her.

"Mom...where's Ayesha?" agad niyang itinuro ang lugar kung nasaan ang taong hinahanap ko. Nakakalokong ngiti ang ipinakita sa'kin ni mama kaya naman kunwaring sinamaan ko siya ng tingin.

She knows that I like Ayesha. Masaya ako na dito sa farm nagtratrabaho ang tita niya kung kaya't nakikita ko siya lalo na kung wala silang pasok. Isinasama kasi siya ng tita niya at kalaro naman niya ang iba pang bata na anak naman ng iba pa naming tauhan.

I look at Ayesha who's busy playing with her playmates. She's already 12 years old and I cannot deny the fact that she's so fucking beautiful. Can't she stop being beautiful? I don't want others gawking their eyes for her.

I want to keep her. I want her mine.

"Sino yung batang yun?" my friend asked. I look where he pointed his finger then I saw that he's asking about Ayesha. What the hell is his problem?!

"Why do you asked?"

"I like her" agad ko siyang kinuwelyuhan kung kaya't napa-atras siya.

"Back off. She's mine, dude"

Matapos ang pangyayaring iyon ay hindi na siya muli pang nagpunta sa farm. Lumipat na rin siya ng paaralan. Nalaman yata ng ama niya kung ano ang nangyari kaya sa takot na may gawin ako sa business nila ay ang ama na niya mismo ang naglayo sa anak niya.

Aba dapat lang. Nakiki-angkin ng hindi naman sa kaniya!

Do you hear yourself, Khairo? I smirk.

Nakita ko si Manang na may dalang pagkain. Tiyak kong ibibigay niya yun sa mga batang hanggang ngayon ay naglalaro.

Kumunot agad ang noo mo matapos makitang hindi man lang kumuha si Ayesha ng pagkain niya.

Then suddenly I realized why. My Ayesha don't eat vegetables.

"Hi Crush!!" she walk with me. I ignored her. I don't know why.

She easily confessed her feelings then after that she'll find someone again. I know her. I know everything about her. That's why I'm having a hard time whether to believe what she says nor just ignore it.

"Hindi kita nakita kahapon sa farm ninyo...hindi ka ba pumunta?"  and she's not even aware kung bakit hindi ako nagpakita sa kaniya kahapon. Tsk.

"Find another job. I don't want to see you every fucking weekend in that fucking farm"
I know I've been harshed on her. It's not because I don't like her anymore. God knows how much I want to keep her in my arms. Can I just keep her on my pocket?