Hard life

The hardest part

2018 New Year's Eve

Verstappen's POV:

During the last half year, Charles and I talked and hung out a lot. We tried to avoid each other on race weekends, but we called or texted every day. At Christmas, I flew to my family and at dinner I wanted to tell them that Charles and I are together, but my father also came, so I didn't tell. We had a few conversations that made me realize that I should focus more on racing. Charles distracted me enough and I knew that this couldn't go on like this no matter how much I wanted to. The risk of failure was too great and I didn't want my career to be ruined before it even started. I didn't progress much further to the finish line in the competition, and the year was a disappointment. I was just getting ready for the New Year's Eve party when I got a message.

Charles❤️🥇: Hey babe are you coming to the party?

Me: Yeah, I just got dressed

Charles❤️🥇: Are we going together?🙂

Today I wanted to tell him that we can't go on like this and it hurt to know that I was going to hurt him and that this beautiful time was over. But I couldn't do anything else. I was hoping we'd still be friends...

Me: Yeah, I'll be there in 5

Charles❤️🥇 liked the message

I put on my shoes and headed downstairs. In the past month, I have been quite distant, which Charles probably noticed because he looked at me with concern quite a few times. I knocked and fuck he was more handsome then ever. He kissed me but I didn't kiss him back. He sighed.

"Let's go I want to get drunk" -he said sadly and didn't look at me

We went down to the car and the journey passed in silence. When I held the steering wheel, my hands were shaking, but when I let go, the situation got even worse. I parked the car and was about to get out, but Charles took my hand.

"I don't want to fight with you. I see that the relationship between us ended a month ago for you because you are afraid and your career is more important." -he said and tears formed in his eyes- "I know that you are more afraid than I am and you don't want to hurt me, but it was only a matter of hours before you would have lost your temper and we would have fought." -he said and closed his eyes- "So I'll say it for you so you don't have to blame yourself. I want to break up." -he said and tears rolled down on his cheeks- "I understand your side as well and you were right, this thing is not working between us. I don't want to lose you as a friend, but I need a break right now." -he said and his voice broke

"I'm so sorry Charles" -I said and he let go of my hand

"It's not your fault that you think like that." -he said but still didn't look in my eyes

I kissed him and he kissed me back. It was a painful kiss full of emotions. Then he pulled back.

"Ik hield van wat we hadden. Het was te mooi..." -I said in a very low voice

"Je veux oublier ce qu'il y avait entre nous. Je ne veux pas m'en souvenir." -he said in a regreted voice

He got out of the car and entered the club. I didn't feel like partying, so I went home and went to sleep. I wanted to focus on my career so that it wouldn't be for nothing that we broke up. I texted to Daniel.

Me: Hey Daniel. I just wanted to say that we broke up with Charles. And I won't go to the party.

Daniel🤪: I'm coming