Something is pulling me down,
It clutches my heart,
Claws stabbing inside,
I know it is bleeding
It is frustrating
I can't move
It is too heavy.
It caught me off guard
Smile frozen in shock
What did I do?
In a sudden thought
I realize
The problem is
I did not do anything.
Should I have stood up?
I just gave myself
A little happiness
To see that smile
To take with me
In my battle.
I just wanted
To hear her giggles
As a record of a lullaby
If chance I rest forever
In that battlefield
Of constant changes
Distorting noises
Loud movements
Sniping bullets.
I did not expect
That shout of rejection
Might have come from
An ignorant bias
I merely mentioned
That I wanted
Another option
I was not ready.
Now she is crying
Every drop of blood
Curl my toes
Flinch a little
Head under the pillow
It is hard to breath.
No palpitations
No voice inside my head
Only the feeling
Of pulling my forehead
Down to the ground
I almost stumble
Clench my toes tighter
Take a deep breath
Though it is painful
To breath it out
I have to keep standing
Chin up
Look ahead.
I thought
It was all fine
Apparently
Only I thought of it
I let her come out
Play a little
But I made her cry
How to recover?
How do I comfort?
No one even reached
Me inside
I did not learn
How to stop her tears?
I do not know
Approaching
Pat on the shoulder
Grip her neck
Maybe if I twist it
She will stop?
-JovialMask2023
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