Lost Smile//Connor Bedard

13.

Angelina's POV

I woke up the next morning, the sun beaming through the open curtains and into my eyes. I looked over at the alarm clock on my nightstand and see that it is 6:30am. I groan and roll over again, this time hitting someone's hard chest. My eyes widen as I look over and see Connor laying beside me. His eyes closed, little snores escaping his sweet lips. It truly was something I wasn't used to waking up to, but something I knew I could get used to. He looked so peaceful.

I slowly began to trace patterns on his chest. I knew I wasn't going to be falling back asleep any time soon, so why not snuggle with Connor. I knew what I was doing was wrong. I knew having sex with him was wrong and I knew this was something I shouldn't be doing at all, especially after what he had done. The bet and the humiliation came flooding back into my mind making me sigh loudly as I turned away from him. I hoped he didn't think I was forgiving him this easily.

"Good morning" I heard Connor mumble as he wrapped his arms around me. I couldn't help but feel safe, comforted when he did this. It felt as if nothing or no one could hurt me when I'm in his arms. Although I wanted to be angry at him, part of me wanted to forgive him already and stay in his arms forever.

But I knew deep down I couldn't do that. Not yet anyway. I needed time, a lot of time.

"Morning" I mumbled back, still facing away from him.

"You know you're beautiful in the morning?" He says, wiping the sleep out of his eyes. I finally turn over, making him smile that famous smile.

"Look Connor" I began, sitting up in my spot. "This doesn't mean I forgive you" he looked at me with sad eyes and sighed. The smile on his face being replaced with a prominent frown.

"I know, Ang. But I hope it's a start" He grabs my hand in his, intertwining out fingers. I once again felt that spark. The spark I was missing when he was gone. He looked me deep in the eyes and I looked deep in his.

"I don't know. You really hurt me" I replied, my voice low. I kept my hand in his, not wanting to ever let it go.

"I know I did. But I told you I'm gonna make it up to you. I'm keeping that promise" He assured me, cupping my face in his hands and placing a gentle kiss on my lips.

I pulled away and got out of bed, leaving Connor in my room as I walked to the bathroom. I turned on the water to my shower and got in. The warm water relaxing my tense muscles. I couldn't help but think about Connor my entire shower. The way he treated me when we were dating was beautiful, he treated me like a true princess. After everything happened with my mom and my depression, he shut me out, broke my heart and left me alone in the sadness. He didn't care. If anything he let his friends bully me, he watched as they did. How could I forgive him?

How could I forgive him for leaving me in the time I needed most? These questions swarmed my mind making me let out a loud sigh. I finished my shower with a quick shave of my legs before wrapping a towel around my body and making my way back to my room.

"How was your shower?" Connor asked as he got dressed. I shrugged my shoulders and replied with a simple 'good'. The awkwardness of the morning after made the room very uncomfortable for the both of us. I could tell by the way he would rub the back of his neck.

"I'm uh gonna go. I'll see you later, Ang" Connor sighed and planted a kiss on my cheek before making his way out of my room. I heard the door downstairs close signalling he had left the house.

Connor's POV

I gave her house one last look before turning my car on and driving off. I couldn't help but let a few tears slip from my eyes. Yesterday was so special. It was full of passion and love, not your usual carefree hookup. I thought it would fix something, but it didn't. I couldn't bare the thought of losing Angelina for good. I did once when I left her.

And I didn't want to lose her again.

Ever.

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Sorry for the poop chapter! I'm trying to keep my updates consistent. I am also starting a new book called 'I hate him' it's about Jack Hughes. The prologue and first chapter will be up soon!

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