HOON'S POV
Hindi ako nakapasok sa shop ngayon kasi nag aya si Vian na mag tour dito sa lugar ni tito. Gusto ko sana i turn down yung offer pero narinig ni tito yung tawag ni Vian kaya nahiya nako mag decline. While we went to those places Angel first brought me to, si Angel talaga yung naalala ko. "Babe hindi mo naman sinabi na andami palang magagandang sights dito. By the way, how'd you know all this places? Bago ka lang dito diba? Aren't y'all busy sa shop nang tito mo?" I wanted to tell her that Angel and I went to this places due to circumstances but I just couldn't bring it up so I just made a reason.
"There were times that we went here" sagot ko pa at hindi na naman sya nagtanong. Nag stop over kami sa isang park uminom na muna nang tubig. "How'd you adjust here that easy? Ang layo layo nang lugar nato sa subdivision nyo" tanong nya pa ulit "it was pretty easy, tito and his staff treated me like family" sagot ko pa ulit "really? Was that the sole reason? I heard from your mom that you didn't call home even once unless sya yung nag ring sa'yo. Why are you dragging this a little too far, Babe? You could've just said sorry and apologize to your dad. You would've been back by now" sabi nya pa.
"Since when did you come visiting my mom? As far as I can remember we hook it off, Vian. I don't even know why you're hear all of a sudden and why I am doing all this things like nothing happened" sabi ko pa "wait, hook it off? Cooling off simply means space and not hooking it off Hoon" sagot nya pa "oh yeah? You want me back now that I've recovered from everything? Be honest Vian, you just didn't want to handle those things with me. And if for you, cooling it off is not hooking it off, well for me it is"
Na realize ko sa panahon na ginugol ko sa shop na habang tumatagal eh sobrang naging toxic na nang relationship namin ni Vian. She was dictating me and I was controlling her, and there were a lot of things in behind.
"Are you saying that we should really break up?" tanong pa ni Vian "we already broke up Vian. All I am saying is that we should make it official that we already did. We were already too toxic Vian, and I know you can feel it. We should stop hurting each other Vian. You're a wonderful woman and you will find someone who'll love you the way I couldn't"
"You're making damn reasons Hoon! Did you find someone to replace me here? Kaya ayaw mo na tumawag sa inyo? Kaya hindi mo na ako kinontak? Kaya nakikipag hiwalay kana?"
"No, I am not making reasons Vian. Ikaw ang hindi makatanggap na hindi na talaga tayo mag wowork out pa. We outgrew each other Vian, at pag pinipilit pa natin to masasaktan lang tayong dalawa. I know that you don't want to accept the facts because of the many years we spent together. But Vian, you should give love to yourself more than anyone else. Mahalin mo yung sarili mo Vian, I am saying this because of the remaining friendship love that I have for you"
"Magsisi ka dito Hoon"
"No, I won't. For I am making this kasi mahal kita at mahal ko ang sarili ko. Thank you for the 3 years Vian. I learned so much for you but we should put an end to all of this. Let's let each other go"
Actually when I told her na hindi na talaga, ewan ko kung naka move on nalang talaga ako kaya hindi na masakit oh baka kasi dahil masaya na ako sa kung nasaan ako. For sure nasaktan ko si Vian kasi alam ko kung gaano nya ako ka mahal but It would've turn out worse kung pinatagal pa namin lahat.
I hope and pray that Vian finds someone who loves her the way I couldn't.
Pagdating ko sa bahay eh naghihintay na sa akin si Shun. "Bakit andito ka?" Tanong ko pa "out of town ulit si kuya Duke starting today. Mawawala sya nang isang linggo kaya nagpa alam ako na dito na muna ako at pumayag naman sya. Anyways dali na, kwento. Alam ko na magkasama kayo ni Vian ngayon kaya kwento na dali! Kayo na ba ulit?" isa pa tung chismosa eh.
"San naman nanggaling yung kami ulit?" tanong ko pa "so hindi? Angas mo pre! Magpapaligaw ka sa babae? Ang gwapo mo naman!" asar nya pa "loko! Hindi! Makinig ka nga muna" putol ko pa sa kanya.
"So ano?" tanong nya pa ulit "i asked her to make it official na wala na kami" sagot ko pa "gago! Akala ko, mahal mo?" tanong nya pa ulit "oo, mahal ko but sometimes loving someone is letting them go. Andami ko kasing na realize habang andito ako. Na realize ko na sobrang naging toxic na namin sa isa't isa tapos hindi na din yun healthy. Mahal ko naman pero hindi na yun enough na rasun para maging kami pa kung hindi na kami nagkaka intindihan. Naki pag break ako kasi mahal ko sya and I am well aware that staying by her side will make me hurt her even more. Dinadasal ko na lang na sana mahanap nya yung lalakeng magmamahal sa kanya the way I coudn't" sagot ko pa
"So wala na, hindi na talaga?"
"Oo, wala na at hindi na talaga" sagot ko pa sa kanya "eh bakit parang hindi kana nasasaktan?" tanong nya pa ulit "hindi ko rin alam kung bakit. Dahil ba naka move on na ako o dahil ba masaya na yung puso ko sa kung nasaan ako ngayon" sagot ko pa. "Masaya na yung puso mo? Bakit may nagpapa saya na bang iba sa yo?" tanong nya pa,
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