Confessions

XXVI

Beyoncé POV

"Ughhh I'm sooooooooo bored, are we there yet?" Chloe asked me as she laid upside down in the backseat holding onto the little rail like a damn monkey

"If I have to tell you to sit right again, I know something!" I said looking back at her, Blue and Halle through the rear view mirror as everyone besides chloe was wearing a seatbelt

"You do realize I'm not scared of you right... what you gonna do, whoop me?" Chloe said laughing and I didn't even say anything back to her, I just put the car in sports mode and took off down the highway

If she thought I was about to go back and forth with her, she clearly didn't know the real Beyoncé. I'll be damned if I let her get the last laugh though

She immediately flew out of her seat going head first into the passenger seat which was empty due to the girls arguing about who got to ride shotgun so I just made everyone ride in the back

The girls were all screaming and scared as I ducked in and out of traffic switching lanes going about 115 mph. Not stopping until we reached our respective exit and got stopped at a red light

"Ouu you trifling bitch.." Chloe mumbled struggling to pick herself off the floor after she and I just laughed at her because she always running her mouth even after just getting laid out

"You're lucky yo lil ass didn't go flying through the window shield , now sit right and put the fucking seat belt on. Don't make me repeat myself either" I told her and finally she decided to listen to me for once

"That was so dangerous B! What if we crashed or got pulled over?!" Halle stressed holding onto her chest meanwhile blue who was used to my reckless driving continued to scroll on her iPad reading her book

"We were gonna be fine trust... I was a nascar racer in my past life" I said laughing at myself and everyone scoffed at me...

woah tough crowd.

"You sound just like our mom when she did dumb stuff" Halle said and I started laughing because that truly sounds exactly like the kiyana I knew

She was shy but when you got to know her, she was the goofiest person in the world. I really felt sick that I ruined such a good friendship over something so stupid! If only I could've had one more chance to talk to her and apologize for everything, she was everything and more. I beat myself up about this entire situation everyday

We arrived at the studio because I had a session and decided to use this as a time to bond with the girls especially Blue.

She's been icing us out every time we try to talk to her but she was still pissed at us especially Chloe and Halle since apparently they through away her vapes which I'm so happy for because she was still so young. She didn't need to be smoking flavored air, hell I don't even know how she got them in the first place

"Finally!" Chloe said jumping out of the seat and the car like she knew where she was going .

"Really mom?! I thought you said we we're gonna do something fun.. we're literally at your job!" Blue said to me harshly and I just shook my head

This girl has had this funky attitude for weeks, no matter what I did to try and talk to her, include her in things, being there for her. She just either rolled her eyes or ignored me

It was really starting to piss me off but Halle just kept reminding me that things like this take time and that she's a teenager and is going through a lot

"It is something fun, just go in" I told her and she huffed stomping into the building already mad for no reason

Before everything happened I had already been in the works of building Blue a little space at my studio building since that's where I spent a lot of my time. I hated leaving her at home by herself now more than ever, but ever since I read blues little journals I've decided to invest more time in a safe space for her.