Confessions

XIX

Beyoncé POV

"This is bullshit! It's been hours" I paced the private waiting area we were in waiting on any news about lovie

Today had been such a wild and chaotic day. This just added insult to injury, we were all wildly shaken up by Lovie's collapse.

We definitely had our differences but we had to put our differences aside for once... this was serious shit. Her body was so limp and fragile in my arms, I wouldn't know what to do with myself if anything were to happen to her especially now that she was in my care

I had one responsibility and I was still fucking it up. I knew it wouldn't be easy but never would I have thought it would be this hard.

"Can you stop and calm down? She's gonna fine..." Halle told me calmly and I just stared at her in confusion wondering how she knew that

"You don't know that, she was barely breathing.." Shawn said trying to antagonize the girls more than he already has

"Was she talking to you? Don't make me hurt you in this hospital because I will" Chloe snapped back at him

"And I'll have you sent right back to jail, where you belong thug!" Shawn argued back and I decided I finally had enough of their bullshit

"Can you two shut the fuck up?!" I yelled at them both frustrated with the constant back and forth

"You're a grown ass man, starting shit with a little girl! They haven't done anything, YOU haven't started. you and my mother has been starting shit since they've been and I'm personally sick of it so either you man the fuck up and learn how to deal with your feelings in a mature manner or you can leave until you grow up" I went off on him leaving no room for him to give me any back talk

I noticed Chloe was laughing as if she was innocent when in reality she was just as wrong as anybody else in this house.

"What are you laughing for?! You're supposed to be the oldest in the house, setting examples for your sisters and somehow you're the most childish! all that fighting, arguing and cursing is not only completely unacceptable, but just plain obnoxious. I made mistakes and I get your mad about it but so has everyone else in this room, so unless you're some mad scientist that can create a Time Machine that takes us all back 16 years in the past I suggest you grow up aswell!" I told her and they both got quite

I guess they knew I was dead ass in this moment and I meant everything I was telling them. They've been so accustomed to me not really saying anything and being peacemaker they didn't realize, I wasn't one of their little friends!

Believe it or not, I wasn't a pushover... I know it may seem like it due to me feeling a bit shy around the twins but I ran shit around here.

I seen a group of doctors finally coming into the waiting area and everyone's attention went to them.

"Are you the family of Lovie Oppong?" The male doctor asked and I nodded, "yeah, something like that. Is she ok?" I asked him and he held a facial that was hard to read

"Luckily we were able to save her life but unfortunately due to the extensive swelling of her cervix and trauma based damage to her uterus we were unable to save the baby" he told us and immediately all our jaws dropped at the same time hearing the words that just fell from his mouth

"H-Her Baby?!" Halle shot out of her seat instantly making us all a little nervous because I know for a fact she hasn't left house since she got here a few weeks ago and She was in jail for two whole months so there's no way we couldn't have known she was over 3 months pregnant..