Confessions

XV

Lovie POV

"Get up lazy.. we got visitation" I heard Halle bang on my cell and I tried to ignore her but there was truly no ignoring any of the Bailey sisters

We had been in here for a month and honestly it was the worst! Nobody here fucked with us at all, we were iced out and treated like animals by everyone including inmates and officers.

A lot of people have here were Beyoncé fans so we'd get people throwing things at us and trying to attack us. It's gotten to the point where we had to change cell blocks 4 times because of the chaos

My current cell mate was a 14 year old arsonist/attempted murderer. She goes by lil killer... but she ain't never kill nobody so I call her Dominique. She was the only person who've actually been nice to me so I appreciate it but it still sucked that we were having such a hard time

"Who the hell visiting us? We ain't even have visitors in our free lives" i asked her and she shrugged waiting for me to get up so we could see our visitor I guess

"Dominique don't let nobody come in her while I'm gone.." I said getting up and she just looked at me like she wanted to kill me for calling her by her real name but i just shrugged it off.

I walked out the open cell making my way through the large jail before seeing all the other criminals sitting around talking waiting until they're called out for visitation themselves

"Alvin and the chipmunks, y'all must ain't tryna have visitation today?" Officer Bell yelled at us basically telling us to hurry our black asses up before he goes out there and tell whoever's out there to go back home

"you seen us coming .." chloe mumbled under her breath holding her hands out so he could cuff us which I hated. Other juveniles could go out to visit their people without restraints but they always cuffed us no matter what. It was honestly pretty annoying if i must say so myself

"table 6, if you act up you will go in the hole" he said mugging us and when we walked through the door we seen Blue sitting there with a bright smile on her face, her mother and some professional looking lady all sitting there

Immediately I began to feel bad and my stomach dropped in shame. Since being here I've had a lot of time to think about what we did to blue and all of her family, I've cried a lot thinking about the pain we might've caused.

I know what it's like to feel pain, I've been through hell and many many storms in my life so I know what it feels like. Knowing I'm the one who caused someone else's pain made me feel like shit

We all slowly made our way to their table and sat down across from them daring not to speak. Thankfully the cuffs were in front of us so I was able to wave to blue but i didn't wanna talk at all

"You guys look sick.." Blues smile immediately dropped staring at us in concern and we all just kinda looked at each other and honestly she was right

All the color in our faces had faded into this almost pale color, huge bags under our eyes. We were basically being starved out, hadn't seen the sun since we've got here, our bodies were basically shutting down on us and we were all around just tired

Tired of being here, tired of life in general ...

"We are" Halle said simply not really going into any details, I watched blues mother remove her glasses and she just stared at us with this stomach wrenching glare. I couldn't tell if she was was about to curse us out or not but I mentally prepared myself for anything

"I told you guys I'd fight for you! We're gonna get you guys the help you need.. I got you a lawyer, meet Lauren" Blue said in brightly trying to raise our spirit and we just stared at her like she was crazy