rough patch hardin and tessa

chapter 2

tessa
i texted kimberly earlier saying im coming to hers later as its somthing ergent.but before i do i read the last couple of chapters of one of my favourite books.pride and prejudice.its also one of hardins favourites.

i finnish in in less than half an hour so i get chand ged into some leggings and a cropped jumper i got today.go to the bathroom and get the test out of its place and straighten up my makeup.

its 12:30 and kimberlys place is about half an hour away so ill get there at oneish.i drive past a mcdonalds really wanting a burger but im allready so bloated from breakfast and lunch.people would actual think i was pregant right now without me telling them.

my bump obviously isn't showing yet as its quite early i just get bloated and hungry really quickly.my intrusive thoughts win and i go and get a burger and a milkshake anyway.this human in my body obviously loves it.

i finish eating and continue my journey to kimberlys.i feel abit sick now but thats my fault.

i get there and pull on there drive.i pull my hair back into a low bun.and walk to their door.i knock and kimberly answers

"tessa im so happy your here!"she pulls me in for a hug and i hug her back.

she welcomes me in and we walk to her room.

"vance has went on some trip so we dont need to worry about him listening and smiths at school"she says

we both sit on her bed and i pull the test out my pocket.ive been trying not to cry but all i did was cry.kimberly looks shocked and she gives me a tight hug.

"i dont know what im going to- do"i sniffle
"hardin isn't going to be very happy"i say

"thats the thing im worried about"kim says
"when did u find out"

"yesterday"i cry again
"i want this child obviously but im scared hardin wont and we have already been through alot of rough patches.this would be a big patch"

"oh tessa"she says and rubs my back

"i dont want him to leave me"
"do you have any advice"

"erm im not sure tessa,you should tell him soon.the day u feel like telling him tell me and ill be outside and if he has a bad reaction you can come out to me, but we will think as we go through but lets book you and appointment"

im so lucky to have kim in my life. shes my bestfriend i dont know what i would do without her.we book an appointment for tuesday kim says she will come to be there for me.as i will probably cry.im such a sensitive person.

"please dont tell anyone yet i know you wont but you know"i say and she nods her head.

i feel so mentally and physically tired now this stuff is alot for me to take in.it makes me feel sick about when telling hardin.like i dont even know how much weeks i am i could start morning sicknesses anytime.

"stop otherthinking it tessa hopefully it will be alright if not im here by your side at all times."she says

"thankyou kim you have no idea how much this means to me."i wipe my eye.

she touches up my makeup for me as it was a mess amd we talk more.

hardin
tessa is at kims doing whatever they do.so i use this time to catch up with my work about my book because i am so behind on it.this stuff is so boring without tess here she helps me sometimes or just waffles about somthing which makes me laugh.

people on the media have lots of questions about me and tessa.one of the most common questions is about kids.i try to avoid it but its allways popping up somtimes i just wish i could say mind your fucking businesses.but you know how the media would re act to that.

im not that keen on the idea of kids but tessa is shes wanted to be a mother for the longest time.but where young clueless adults.i think i would react badly by accident as thats just who i am as a person.i dont want a kid just incase i treat it how i got treated.tessa allways says i wouldnt but it troubles me.and i just dont think i could ever be a father.

my second after book is nearly finnished and my managers keep on snagging me to bring it out when it isn't fucking finnished yet.there so bossy for what reason.if my book don't come outvthe world isn't going to end.

when i was writing my first book before anyone even knew i had no rush at all as i could do it in my own time.tessa got mad when she first found out about the book as she diddent wnat the whole world knowing her privacy but she was ok with it in the end.

the amount of paper work im seeing is making me blind.mostly the papers are about my book needs finnishing.i sigh and get it out ajd start writing.

i normally do this in my free time or when me and tessa have had a little bit of an argument so i can take my mind off the argument.
tessas been away for about 2 hours and i miss her.i wonder what shes doing right now.