It's been exactly a day since I killed a man.
I haven't left my room.
I don't want to, what if his blood still stains the loungeroom floor?
And most importantly why hasn't anyone called the police?
I killed a man. Killed.
He's dead and he's not coming back.
He was going to kill Xander, he hurt Gunner, so it's not like he's innocent but I still feel this horrible guilty feeling.
I hate it. I don't want to feel like this.
I could really use some alcohol right about now.
I sigh as I sit up, scrunching my nose up at the gross stench, that's coming from me.
I'm a sweaty mess.
I seriously need a shower.
I throw my blanket off myself and stand, walking to the bathroom at snail pace.
I look between the shower and bathtub, trying to decide which to use.
I pick the bathtub, I feel like soaking the homicide I committed off my body.
If you can even do that.
I sit at the edge of the tub and run the water.
Feeling it up with boiling water.
When it's full I dip my hand in and wince, pulling it back. My hand stinging slightly.
Perfect.
The burn will make me feel better.
I carefully take my brace off my hand and strip my clothes off, I bend to take my white socks off but freeze.
Blood.
Two small drops of blood is on my socks.
I feel bile rise to my throat and I cover my mouth, tears stinging my eyes.
Who knew murdering someone could make you so emotional.
I rip the socks off so roughly I'm surprised my toes didn't come off too.
I suck in my tears and swallow.
I breathe in and out deeply before putting one leg into the bathtub.
I wince again, squeezing my eyes shut.
It burns so bad but I deserve it.
Once I'm fully in the tub, shaking and scratching my skin from the burn, I begin to cry.
Big fat silent tears running down my face.
I haven't cried like this in ages.
I've been so emotional this past week, I hate it.
I sniffle and wipe my face with hot water after I'm finished with my little sob session.
Alright time to get out and go talk to Zachariah.
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The bruises that were on my stomach are finally starting to fade, they are only a dark brown now.
It took them longer then usual.
Maybe Dane hit harder then usual.
Dane.
I haven't thought about my father in a while.
It's been a month since he died.
They said some car accident, hit and run or whatever.
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Genesis
ActionGenesis has grown up with a neglective, abusive father all throughout her sixteen years of life. Despite all the pain and trauma she goes through, she's still standing. Fighting back against her pathetic excuse of a father, not letting him see her w...