"The Parts That I Lost"
Part 1: My Paradise
This part of myself is a part that I knowingly lost
I know where I lost it, I know where it ended
Growing up, the only thing I am proud of is a whole family
We were not rich, we were not poor, we were average
I thought we are happy, I thought we are enough
But that was the first of the many mistakes I will have in my life
My mom is a fountain of knowledge for many tree saplings
My dad is a brick wall, a castle of strength and stability
I and my sister are princesses that are loved and adored
Oh such a lie we have been told, it is not a perfect family
The fountain flooded every night and it almost drowned us
Tears taste salty and bitter from where we are standing
The castle cannot be conquered, it refuses to take down its walls
The castle locked us in its rules, we are its slaves
The tears are the fountain, the fountain is the tears
The castle is the king, the king is the castle
She learned to defend herself, she learned not to care
While the king found a concubine, think of her as a spare
I remember the flying glass and plates,
The crumbling foundation and base
I remember the crying, tearing, cutting, and killing
Whatever is left in the thing I loved the most is gone
Then after years of pretending that we are perfect,
They finally stopped lying, the truth find its way out of the ground
That memory is very vivid in my mind
It builds its tower in my kingdom
It is the oldest grave in my graveyard
My siblings are crying along with my Mother
But, I didn't cry, I already lost the energy to break apart
I knew I had to be strong for the ones who are already shattered
The truth is I can already feel the cracks getting bigger
But I act like nothing happened, just being a great pretender
Well, I knew that was going to happen
I watched my paradise burn to ashes,
I watched my roots fall out of love
That is the first pain caused by affection
At that point, I have been suspicious of love
This is the first type of love that I failed to protect.
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