"I am not Fine"
This story of us already ended
Everything is back to where it was before
Oh no, not everything is still the same.
For starters, I don't have to arrive early to make sure you have your favorite seat
I am not looking forward to tomorrow because I don't have anyone I'd like to see
No more love songs are playing on my headset
Only sad songs are allowed on my door at night
There will be no more "Good mornings" which I used to say "I miss you"
There are no more "Goodnights" and "Sleep wells" that mean "I love you"
There is no more waiting for you to return the affection
The bus won't come so I decide not to wait in line
There are no more chasing games, I will not dream anymore
There is no more hope, I CANNOT hope anymore
No more hope because the vacancy in your heart is already filled
No more being nervous when talking to you
I want to talk to you, I mean I don't want to talk to you, but I do
I... I don't know what to feel anymore
Sometimes I just think of it as a sign
The heavens finally fulfilled my wish to not feel anything
There is no more you in my dreams
The "You" became the "I" in my poems
And my poems are only written in pain
The excitement in my eyes when seeing you is already gone
No happiness can be seen in my eyes
Just turmoil reigns in my heart
Almost everything left me already, it was just sadness that stayed
It is only me and my broken heart and soul at this moment
I know I promised to be fine and forget as if nothing happened
But I failed, just like that I broke my promise
Can you blame me for not keeping the pain inside?
Even if I smile the pain will find its way out of my skin
Even if I lie you will see the pain in my eyes
Turns out I am not that good of a liar
I can't even fool myself to believe that I'm fine
Because I am not fine, I am not ok
The love is still here but I can't have it anymore
I can't have it because it's wrong
Still loving you is treachery, it is a crime
Cause you already made a choice and it isn't me
No more love, I said no more love is allowed in my heart
For now, I forbid love to enter my life
Let me heal first then you can break me again
Give me time then you can destroy me like love always did.
A/N: Hello, I would love to hear your thoughts about this poem. You can write your favorite line or the phrase/line you like the most in this poem. Mine is down in the comment section. I'll be waiting for your answer. Once again thank you for reading! Love you guys, bye!
PS: I don't have any photos to post so I'll just post random drawings of people HAHAHAHA. I drew this or fun so might as well use them in my book.
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