kpop idol - me

chat 88) MAMA awards, Jin's enlistment and JK walk

Jhope went to his seat first and a minute later i walked out. we sat in our separate places , obviously fans and delulus online are still not understanding of friendships. so just to make sure stupid things dont go viral and cause us a headache for no reason , we just sit separately.

i was alone , like every year.

but he was alone too....for the first time ever. i wanted to look back at him every few minutes , but i couldn't because it would be too obvious. i was sat right in front of every artist , literally a metre from fans.

the award show began off with this

i didnt smile at all throughout it , but i gave them a standing ovation , which promoted all the other idols to do the same. it was a 10/10 for me. loved it. iconic as fuck. 10/10. could have done with better effects tho. 

then it was this

it was a okay performance. i just found the second section of the rap slightly off , this is so something that JYP would try to write. he probably interfered in this a lot.

i couldn't help but smile when hanbin was singing, i still wish he debuted with us, but i couldn't make it happen as easily as i wished

a few awards went out as they set up the stage for the next performance- i got one too , i gave a basic speech and sat back down

i covered my mouth and nose with my hands to hide the horror on my face. 

the outfits were a 1/10. wtf is going on. and their hairstylist just made the whole thing way more messier and distracting. i might just break out into tears...the phone concept was a 10/10 , but the kids letter blocks disgusted me. they themselves were great performances but oh my god.[overall a 1/10]

a few more awards went out after this .

i will never forgive whoever is in charge of their outfits....oh my god the backup dancers, their hair - oh my go. at least the dance is good and the choreo is a 7/10.WTF WAS THE CONCEPT OF THE OUTFITS?? i think it was a pathetic attempt on hiphop judging by the props? god help their managers when i get back to the hybe office , im taking over their next award ceremony. oh my god and the background is just -  THIS IS ALL OVER THE PLACE WTF. i clapped at the end , but there was a single smile on my face. [overall = 2/10] 

this was average , like it was a good performance.[overall = 5/10]