A WHY CHOOSE NOVEL
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Can you withstand the pain and criticism?
Hunter Anderson, Garrett Reid, Blaise Dawson and Ashton Hernandez are mine. They may be a little broken, hurt, and constantly distressed but they...
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GARRETT'S JOURNAL
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Garrett Reid August 14th Age: 16 I have no idea why I was given the task to right down what's on my mind. I'm shit at talking about my feelings. I've never been good at it. That and my dad says that emotions make a man look weak therefore he shouldn't show them. Even if this is ink on paper I don't want to be seen as weak I'm trying my hardest to write at least something but I can't. Yeah, I've been staring at this page for minuets and I have nothing to say. This is stupid.
Garrett Reid October 27th Age: 16 So, my therapist got angry with me today. He found out I lost this stupid journal and that I have been lying to him about writing in it. Frankly I could give zero fucks about what he thinks or what the fuck he says but I can't. I found out that my mom pays for my therapy sessions. Not my dad. I don't know if I should be surprised. I'm not my dad's favorite. Out of four sons I'm honestly the last one on his mind. Hell, I'm pretty sure I'm not on his mind period. I'm constantly compared to Prescott which used to piss me off but I've gotten used to it. I'm used to being compared to all of my brothers in general. I'm not a people pleaser like Prescott. I'm not as smart as Elliott. And I sure as hell am not as outgoing like Wyatt. I feel like all good traits went to everyone in my family except me. I feel You know what, why the fuck am I doing this? This is stupid. Goodbye.
Garrett Reid March 27th Age: 17 I promised myself I wouldn't write in this stupid book again but I have to. Just for today. Just to get all these "emotions" out of my system. I found out I'm getting married in a few months. Yeah, I still can't believe it. Even after writing it down it still feels unreal. Amanda Laurier. I hate her. She makes me so uncomfortable. She's older than me and every time I'm with her she always asks me if I ever think about being a father. I'm not even 18 yet. No, I don't want to be a fucking father. I want to play football. I want to play basketball. I want to race. I want to go to school events instead of going to RSS events. I want to be free for fucks sake. I want to do what I want. Is that too much to ask for? Besides. I'm not getting anything from this stupid set up. All I'm getting is an annoying ass girl in my life. Why couldn't my dad have promised her to Prescott? They suit each other. They are both pain in the asses and give me migraines. Oh and may I add that they are both the same age. If I wanted to get a wife let alone a girlfriend I'd probably be able to get one much more better looking than her. One that doesn't touch me inappropriately even after I state my discomfort. One that isn't so fucking annoying. One that dresses in colors and not in pure white like a fucking saint. I really hope this stupid arrangement goes in my favor and doesn't happen. Okay, that's enough. Goodbye.
