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(Haru Nanase) I'll Keep You Safe

A/n: Hello, everyone! Here's a Haru oneshot that has been requested to me. This oneshot will have mentions of self-harm. If you are uncomfortable with the subject, I suggest you skip this one!

I would also like to say that I am not one to know much. I'm really sorry if I messed the whole idea up and made some mistakes about the matter.

I know self-harm is a serious thing. I could only hope for all of you that are feeling down in the dumps to know that it will get better one day! It may take a long time and may it be a hard journey, but you will find happiness one day. Also, there are alternatives other than self-harm. Here's a post that can help you with this, there are also wonderful ideas of distracting you, maybe give you a laugh, for when you feel guilty/sad/lonely, for when you feel panicky/scared, and much more helpful things! http://ithurtssomuch.tumblr.com/selfharm

I hope I didn't make anyone too uncomfortable with this update. Also, this was a short oneshot, but I hope I've done it some justice. Aaand, Haru may be a little ooc. Sorry.

Sousuke oneshot will be coming up soon!

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"(F/n)?"

I glanced up at the sound of the familiar voice. I had to shade my (e/c) orbs due to the bright sunlight beating down on the both of us, but I could still see the slender figure of the school's star swimmer. "Ohayo, Haru," I weakly greeted him. I shifted my position with my back against the wall. I was just taking a rest at the rooftop of Iwatobi High, but I guess my boyfriend found me. "What's up?"

He squatted down so he was at the same level as me. Thankfully at this angle, the damn sun wasn't going directly into my face. "You didn't come back to class, (F/n)," he murmured while resting his hand on top of my head.

"How did you find me?" I questioned him out of curiosity.

"I know you well enough to figure it out," he answered. "You shouldn't be skipping."

I scoffed while craning my head away to avoid his intense, sapphire gaze. "What's the point? Nothing is getting through to my head." This was true. I feel like that every time our teacher opens their mouths, all I hear was gibberish. Also, nothing they say are ever interesting. Was it really material I would need in life? I bet not. And my lack to care was beginning to show in our recent quizzes.

"(F/n)," he mumbled out with disappointment evident in his voice. His fingers began to entangle into my (h/c) locks, one of the little things he does to show affection to me. He then stood up and held out his hand out for me to take. "C'mon."

I gave him a questioning look as I let him pull me up onto my feet. "C'mon where? You have swim practice, don't you?" I asked him. He interlocked his fingers with mine and began leading me off the roof. "Haru."

"We're going to hang out together, you and me." I stared at the back of his head, eyes bulging out with bewilderment. Haru, my dolphin boyfriend with the stoic expression, is actually skipping practice? Skipping out on time to be in the water? What has gotten into him? "We're going to go to the store, buy some snacks, and go to my house to watch some movies."

I was rendered speechless. I just let him tug me along with hi and we ended up doing exactly as what he had said. We went to the local grocers and Haru insisted I get whatever I want. Reluctant, I picked a couple of my favorite treats and he paid for it.

Then, we walked all the way to his house under the beating afternoon sun. It was specifically hot today and I really was starting to feel the heat under my school blazer. The moment we make it to Haru's house, I was panting like a dog. "Go ahead and change into my clothes if you want, (F/n). I'll set everything up in the living room."

"Haru..." I wanted to ask him why he was easily swayed to not go to swim practice. It truly has to be the weirdest thing to have witnessed. With a firm hand on my waist, he led me to his bedroom. "D-Did you at least tell Gou or Makoto that you'll be skipping practice?"

He nodded his head. "I did. I told Makoto about how I will miss practice before school ended." He leaned in and gave me a quick peck on my cheek. "You don't have to worry about it, he was very understanding." With that, he left me behind in his room. I decided that maybe it was best to change out of my dampened uniform. I searched around his drawers for something that would satisfy me. Finally, I found a pair of shorts and a blue, long-sleeved shirt to wear. I quickly changed into his clothes and went into the bathroom to freshen myself. I took one glance in the mirror at my reflection. I looked paler than before and just slightly, there was dark circles forming under my eyes. With a sigh, I looked away while tugging lightly on the sleeves.

Once done and refreshed, I entered the living room where we will have our little hang out. There, I see my boyfriend picking out movies from the Nanase DVD stash, all of which were a few of my favorite movies. I plopped down on the comfy couch as he popped (F/m) into the DVD player. Haru came over to sit by my side. He leaned over to pick up a glass of (f/d) and one of the bags of (f/c). "Here you go, (F/n)." I take a small sip of (f/d) and take one piece of (f/c) before he returned it back onto the coffee table.

When the movie started playing, Haru wrapped an arm around my shoulders and pulled me into his chest. As simple as that, I relaxed, gladly taking in his warmth as the movie rolled on.

Unfortunately, the more we got into the movie, I realized it wasn't as entertaining as it once was. I remembered that months ago, there would be time where I wouldn't stop watching and re-watching these movies. What had me so easily invested before? I don't know...

"(F/n)?" I picked my head up so to look at Haru. He held out chips towards me, offering for me to take them. I shook my head in response. "(F/n)... You know I love you, right?"

I picked myself off of Haru so I could look at him fully. "Of course I do," I told him. "Ok, Haru. I didn't want to ask but is there something going on? You skipped out on being in the water. That's very rare for you to do."

"(F/n), I know what's going on." He cautiously took hold of my hands and pulled back on the sleeves to reveal my deep, reddened cuts. I hissed at the horrid sight. My misty eyes averted back onto Haru, desperately looking for an answer as to how he found out about this. "I've noticed small changes in you. You've been eating less, you never come to classes, I can tell you're sleeping less... And, you're wearing your blazer to cover them up..."

His hands reached my face and he caressed my skin. "I know you're keeping it all inside... But you don't have to." Warm tears rolled down my cheeks as Haru pulled me back into his chest. I clutched onto his shirt and let myself bawl into him, letting all my pent up emotions out. "I'm sorry for everything that happened to you recently, but please, you're never alone on this. I want to help you, the whole swim team want to help you. You have so much people that care about you."

I trembled in his arms as my sadness shook me to the core. "I don't even know anymore, H-Haru. Everything just suddenly t-turned into crap and it's just too hard to cope with," I sobbed.

I felt gentle circles on my back, gradually calming me down. "You don't have to endure it all by yourself, (F/n). If you'll let me, I want to stay by your side and help you." He picked up one of my wrists and gently kissed the ragged skin. Watching him do this had hit me overwhelmingly. I was so lucky to have someone like him.

"O-okay, Haru. Thank you so much. I love you."

"I love you too. Is there anything you want to do right now?" He asked me.

I wiped away my wet cheeks and weakly smiled at him. "I just want to cuddle, if that's ok with you." Subtly, he returned a grin and nodded. He tightened his embrace and let me snuggle more into him, legs entangled and heart beats in sync.

I know I've been in bad shape lately and I believed that cutting was the way to make me feel better. The pain, the blood trickling down my skin, it felt good. I didn't care about the consequences of my life after all the losses I've had.

But, not only was I hurting myself, I was hurting others. I needed to try for the sake of my health and well-being. With Haru and the others, maybe it's time to reevaluate my thoughts. For far too long, I've been hurting. It's time to heal and with the people that care so much about me.