Today was 6th grade orientation,
I woke up happy.
I didn't think about him.
My eyes wern't puffy like they were each other day.
I talked to him, and found out that he deleted my number,
I told him to listen to 'Stomach Tied In Knots' By Sleeping With Sirens
He said that he liked that song,
That Song Described Everything For Me.
I asked him if he knew what I was trying to say by that song, he said "nope"
I don't think he even listened to it....
I told him nearly everything I wanted to say to him,
And I told him that I needed him.
I pretty much asked him back,
I sent him the lyrics to the song and he said, "Okay okay no more lyrics I get it." I said, "But you said you don't get it. You didn't know what I was trying to say." And then about 2 and 1/2 hours later I said "I still love you. But I know you don't want to talk to me and I'm probably annoying you. So goodnight sorry."
But he didn't really give me an answer,
I think I annoyed him.
Maybe I should give up.
As I'm writing this, I have to keep myself from crying.
Maybe I should forget, but what if I never forget about him?
No one else has ever liked me at all.
And I ruined this,
Maybe I should have never even started talking to him.
Because he's forgot about me, but I can't forget about him/
But I went to school at 7AM to practice my viola.
The whole morning was good,
Until...
The choir guys sang,
They sang 'Gone Gone Gone' by Phillip Phillips I felt my eyes tear up,
And I started to cry.
No one saw me thankfully.
I need him, but he don't need me, and he moved on, while I still sit here crying, wanting him back, needing him back, I fucked up bad this time, that's all I am, All I am is a huge fuck up, no one needs me here, I'm nothing without him
"See the problem isn't you, it's me, I know
I can tell, I've seen it time after time
And I'll push you away (mmm)
I get so afraid, oh, no
And I can't live without you now
I can't even live with myself
And I can't live without you now
And I don't want nobody else
I only have myself to blame
But do you think we can start again?
'Cause I can't live without you"
YOU ARE READING
Keep quiet
Teen FictionAnd I don't want to world to see me cause I don't think they'd understand. When everythings meant to be broken I just want you to know who I am