-If Only- Jaeyong

Bonus Chapter: Jaehyun and Taeyong's Last Thoughts

Taeyong

"I knew that everything took a turn ever since Jaehyun entered my life. I never thought that this would happen. I never thought that love would bloom between Jaehyun and me. It was one of the most unexpected things in my life. If someone had told me that I would  fall in love with him I would have thought that they were crazy but here I am...

However, the memories I made with him are one of the best ones in his life. They were one of the happiest days that I have ever had. I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world and everytime I remember the memories, I always smile and cherish every second of it.

Some people might call us a mistake like Jaehyun did when he asked me to forget him and I hated that word because nothing was a mistake for me. It was always meant to be or in our case, not meant to be.

Even if this relationship I had with Jaehyun was a considered mistake then let it be.

Because it was the best mistake that I have ever made in my life"

Jaehyun

"When I was young, I had always wanted to marry a person I love. I wanted to take care of that person and shower them with all my love, affection and cooking. When my first love came into my life, I thought she would be the one I would walk down the aisle with but she left me with a broken heart. 

I thought I could never fall in love again. I thought that my heart could never burn again like it once did. That is until I met Taeyong. The flame that was once dead inside me lit up with sparks because of Taeyong and blazed in my heart.

Although this time, deep down, I knew that it wouldn't last long. I knew that one day I would have to let him go for he wasn't mine. It hurt me. It hurt me so much.

But I will always be grateful for Taeyong. Because of him, I finally got to have the feeling of love that I missed out on my whole life. Because of him I felt happier than I have ever been. Because of him I felt warm, I felt contented and I felt loved. 

Taeyong lighted up the darkest nights of my life. He made me feel alive...

 and I will always love him for that."

Last words

Jaehyun

"I'm sorry for everything Taeyong. I really am. If only we had met in another situation I would have treated you like my world. I hope you know that I love you and I will always love you. Even if we didn't end up together, we still have all the loving memories we made. I miss your freesia scent, I miss your laugh and I miss the way you smile whenever I call your name. I hope one day that we can meet again and until that day, my heart will still beat the same way for you. Until that day, I'll still be waiting for you...."

Taeyong

"I wish I could have done more for you Jaehyun. I wish I could have fulfilled your happy ending. I'm sorry for all the hurtful words I said during our fight. I still love you and I hope you know that. I will never forget all the memories we make, all those days you made me smile and all those days you made my heart beat like it was my first time. Maybe it wasn't in our fate to be together this time but who knows what the future holds? Just like you said remember? Not this life, not this time, but maybe next time. Maybe in another life huh?

I'll see you there..."

The End