Love Language [A Park Jimin FF]

오십일 (Fifty One) - S

A/N: Hello and happy 2023!! I know it's been a really REALLY long while since I updated 🥲 Hence, for anyone who needs a recap on what happened between Sophie and her professor, please refer to chapter forty-five!!

~오십일 (Fifty One) - S~

Jimin places a warm glass of water before me on the table as I thanked him quietly while sipping on it, him carefully sitting himself down on the chair opposite me. The last time we sat at this table was when we had just arrived in Seoul not too long ago; when everything was still rather fresh for me, and I abstained from talking to him about the incident like it was the plague.

A talk that should have been done back then.

"No rush." He says, his expression and tone calm while his gaze gentle. Yet even as he appeared composed, exhaustion was clearly evident in his features, causing me to grip the cup a little tighter.

The time we spent apart had motivated and prepared me for this talk, as I knew that avoiding the topic was no longer an option. Yet even as I had physically drafted - then memorised - the points that I wished to say, such that the matter would not come out sounding more horrendous than it already was, I couldn't help but still find myself feeling extremely afraid; possibly even doubtful.

He...he may choose to leave once he knows, won't he?

No, pull yourself together already Sophie. He loves you, remember that. He fucking called you despite knowing that he shouldn't and had you fetched over to Seoul. He wouldn't do any of these things if he didn't love you.

He'll love you no matter what...right?

"Sophie?"

"Right um...so..."

Jimin watches me fumble as he reaches forward silently, grabbing onto my hands that have been sub-consciously trembling the entire time, squeezing them gently before he cups them together in his hold. He looked towards me with a faint smile filling his face, demonstrating to me that he was listening, that no matter what he was and will be here.

Taking a deep breath, I nodded before beginning again.

"So um...I know this is something that I should have probably shared with you the moment it occurred; something that I should have told you first instead of others, making you think that I trusted the others more when really...you're the last person I want to disappoint or hurt."

Jimin's eyebrows furrow slightly in confusion as he takes a while to understand what I had just said, but eventually he nods.

"Yeah?"

"You are the last person I want to disappoint or hurt because of how much love I have for you. Hence...h-hence..."

The first stutter had occurred as I took a few deep breaths to try to keep my breathing regular while Jimin automatically squeezes my hands for assurance. Nodding quickly to let him know that I was fine, I continued on.

"Hence, whatever that I'm about to share, please promise me that no matter what, you will listen to me till the end and that you...you will remain calm about this, can you do that?"

"Okay, I promise."

"Will you also um...continue holding my hands as I talk?" My meek request causes him to widen his eyes in slight surprise, before breaking into a soft chuckle.

"Of course babe, always." He replies rather fluently, the familiar 'babe' sending warmth into my heart as I couldn't help but reciprocate with a small comforting smile of my own.

"Thank you. I shall begin now."

"Okay."

As promised, Jimin did not once interrupt while I spoke, holding onto my hands comfortingly throughout and squeezing them every now and then when they trembled.