Saying Goodbye

chapter 33

i grab both his cheeks into my hands and pull him in for a kiss. i kiss him softly to let him know it's ok. to let him know we'll get through this. he places his hands on my hips. he kisses me tenderly.

it feels like every time we kiss, all of our problems go away. all of my fears vanish. the thought of losing him doesn't cross my mind when i'm in his embrace.

he pulls away from me. he leans his forehead on mine.

"i'm sorry." he whispers.

"it's ok, mike. it's ok." i whisper back. he stands up and pushes me on the bed. he lays beside me and pulls me close.

we laid in my bed for a while. we talked about what our future would look like together. we also talked about our hobbies and interests, which is something we haven't had much time to talk about.

he did know me well enough to know when something was bothering me, but he didn't get the chance to fully understand me. we never spent enough time together to have meaningfull conversations. we've always been so caught up in everything else but each other. it feels like i'm finally getting to know him. yes, we did facetime a lot, but it's not the same. it feels like i finally got some real one on one time with him.

"ki." tobiah says bursting into my room.

"tobiah!" i exclaim. "what if we were fucking?" i ask.

"then i would've shot him." tobiah replies. he flashes his gun on his hip. i look at mikey. he looks at me nervously.

"you wouldn't shoot your cousin." i state.

"if i saw him fucking my sister, i would." he replies.

"what do you want?" i ask. i turn on my other side so my back is to mikey. i lay down and back myself up against him. he wraps his arm around me and lays his head on my shoulder. tobiah looks at us disgustedly.

"i wanted to tell you how my date went." he says.

"ok." i reply. i motion for him to go on.

"does he have to be here?" tobiah asks pointing to mikey.

"why would he leave?" i ask.

"its fine. i'll go." mikey says. he climbs off my bed. he walks around my bed to face me. he kisses me softly. "don't forget about tomorrow." he says.

"i won't. i'll be there." i smile. he kisses me again.

"call me later." he says. he heads toward my door.

"i will." i nod my head softly.

he walks out of my room. tobiah stares him down as he walks past him. i sit up on my bed and dangle my legs off the edge. i wait until i hear his footsteps going down the stairs before i say anything.

"why are you being so mean to him?" i ask.

"i'm not being mean. i just don't want him all up in my business." tobiah shrugs. he sits on my desk chair.

"he's your cousin." i say rolling my eyes. i grab the pillow mikey was previously laying his head on. i pull the pillow to my chest but not before smelling it. tobiah looks at me weirdly.