though i try and deny it
i have a hard time
accepting anger
and although i say
forgive and forget
and move on
i struggle deeply
with seeing people
for anything other
than how they abused me
i suppose it's a product
of my awful victim complex
but no matter how hard
i push it away
it still lingers
and festers
so just know
when the tears finally dry
and the sparkles leave my eyes
i'm hating you so much
i can barely breathe
but i say it all with a smile
because a nice girl never acts angry
at least that's what i've been told
and i'm having a little
déjà vu here
because the last time this happened
it was the beginning of the end
for me and you
when i lost my choice
and you lose your bearings
it's a matter of days now
you're one quick comment away
from losing all that we had
dangling by a thread
and i must admit
im only holding on
so i can desensitize myself
for when we walk away
i wasn't lying
when i said
i was bad at forgiveness
so don't brush me off
when i say im having problems
and blame it all on me
for seeing you as not enough as you are
because i believe that you are enough
but enough and kind
are two different things
