-If Only- Jaeyong

Chapter 28:No Longer

How he kissed Taeyong with a fiery passion under the moonlight. How he made fervent love with Taeyong in the bed sheets. How he opened his past to him and started this relationship with him.

Everything that once built up to the peak of his heart replayed in his mind as he smiled bitterly at the memories.

It didn't take long for all he had built up to crumble down. He opened his eyes as he took a deep breath and lied there motionlessly. 

He wondered if Taeyong felt the same way too...

If Taeyong had regretted everything they had done. 

If Taeyong wish he had never done the things he did.

If Taeyong could turn back time, would he still choose to love Jaehyun....

Taeyong cuddled with Yuta in bed as they huddled underneath a blanket, watching a movie together. He held Yuta's hand for comfort while the characters on the screen rambled their dialogue but Taeyong wasn't paying attention to it. He didn't even know what he was watching. He could only hear muted muffles from the TV as he zoned out once every few seconds. 

He couldn't think straight. 

Ever since the outburst he had with Jaehyun, he had been an emotional mess. Crying whenever he saw something that reminded him of Jaehyun and not being able to control his emotions. Yuta was his only saving grace from everything and he clung onto him addictively. 

"Are you fine Taeyong?" Yuta worriedly asked as he noticed Taeyong being silent for the pass few minutes. 

"Yea" Taeyong whispered, nodding hesitantly. 

Yuta sighed as he paused the movie and turned towards Taeyong.

"It's fine Taeyong. You can tell me" Yuta gave him a reassuring smile.

Taeyong gazed at Yuta's sweet smile as he felt guilt rushing through him. Yuta treating him nicely just made him feel worse than he already did. He wanted to nod and smile back but he couldn't as the emotions he tried to suppress broke loose.

Taeyong burst into tears as he sobbed. He stretched his arms out and gestured for Yuta to hug him. 

"Please... hold me"

Yuta embraced Taeyong into his warmth as he spoke soft comforting words and soothingly rubbed his back.

"Hey hey it's fine baby let it all out" Yuta whispered. "It's all gonna go away soon"

Taeyong shook his head and hugged Yuta tighter. 

Tears streamed down his face as he trembled in Yuta's arms. He took a deep breath as a whiff of pinewood scent hit him.

He cried harder when he realized it.

The pinewood scent no longer remind him of Yuta....

It now reminded him of Jaehyun.

I'm sad to say that this story is coming to an end. I hope you guys are enjoying it and I hope you guys are ready for the ending.