-If Only- Jaeyong

Chapter 24: Drown

After drying himself off, he slipped into his night clothes as he set his items on the table at the balcony. It was a warm night and Jaehyun decided to do his work there so the breeze would cool him down.

The soft tapping of the laptop calmed Jaehyun down as he swiftly went over some documents. He took a sip of coffee from his mug as the bitter sweet taste flowed through this throat.

Buzz Buzz

Jaehyun's phone vibrated on the table as he swiped the green button and put it on speaker mode.

"Hey Dad"

"Sup Yuta"

"Are you free to talk?"

"I'm currently doing some work but it's fine."

"Ahh ok. Well I just called you to tell you something important."

Jaehyun nodded "Yea?"

Jaehyun heard a deep breath from the other side and then sigh. "So I'm coming back in two days and.... I have some things planned"

Yuta continued. "Taeyong and I have been together for 4 and a half years already and I, I love him so much"

"I have thought about this for quite a while already and I made up my mind yesterday"

Jaehyun heard Yuta take a deep breath. 

I want to take this to another step...."

He stopped typing as a shiver of dread ran through his whole body.

"I want to marry him"

Jaehyun felt the wind getting knocked out of him as the words that came out of Yuta shocked him unexplainably. He tried to grasp hold of the situation as he quickly grabbed his phone and accidentally knocked the coffee mug over, sending shards of glass everywhere.

"Dad? What happened? Are you still there?"

Jaehyun felt himself getting woozy as his heart pounded rigorously. He quickly grabbed his phone and put if off speaker mode.

"Yuta? Sorry I dr- I dropped my phone"

" Is the phone okay?"

"It's fine" Jaehyun let out breathy speeches.

 "So as I was saying, after careful thoughts and consideration, I'm planning to marry Taeyong when I come back"

"Are you sure Yuta? Do you see a future with him? You're still young you know, you could meet-"

"Yes dad I'm sure" Yuta cut him off. "Taeyong is the only person I can see spending my whole life with"

Jaehyun didn't know what to say. He didn't know what to do. He didn't know what to expect or what to respond.

"I haven't told Taeyong yet because I want it to be a surprise" Yuta slightly chuckled "Taeyong loves surprises"

Jaehyun nodded half heartedly. On one hand he wanted to give his son a big hug and congratulate him but on the other hand, he was losing Taeyong, the first person he ever learned to love in 22 years.

Jaehyun felt sweat pouring at his back as he quickly tried to recollect himself.

"C-congrats Yuta! I'm so happy for you. I can't wait to attend the wedding"

"Aww thanks Dad. Love you"

"Love you too" Jaehyun whispered as he placed his phone on the table.

The glow of the laptop dimmed as the moonlight faintly washed over him. Everything was silent apart from Jaehyun's soft quick breaths and the emotions roaring inside him. He tried to calm himself down and think of a better way to deal with the situation but Jaehyun can't do this anymore.

 He can't take it anymore. 

A person he loved was once again ripped away from his heart just at the tip of his finger.

He let out soft breaths as tears made his way into his eyes.

The fear of losing Taeyong was enough to send Jaehyun over the edge as he raked his hand through his hair and tried to uselessly wipe his flowing tears away.

Droplets and droplets of tears fell onto Jaehyun's lap as soft sobs echoed. He knew that this was going to happen one day. Ever since he fell in love with Taeyong, he knew that this day was bound to come. He knew that Taeyong and him could never be together.

But he still went for it.

He still fell in love with Taeyong.

Waves and waves of emotions poured out of Jaehyun as he felt himself sinking in it. He couldn't do anything as he laid there helplessly while it took over him.

And the worst thing was, there was no one to save him as he could only drown in his own feelings.