Chapter 34, Back To The Past
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Trigger Warnings: Body Image Problems, Body-Shaming
Do not read if you are triggered towards this, I don't want anyone feeling uncomfortable or harmed in any way.
Remember you are beautiful the way you are.Enjoy!
" I just wanted to look pretty for once. "
~ Scarlett's POV ~
I was having a good nap, dreaming about food and whatnot but was rudely awoken by the screaming of Jaden.
That kid takes his game so serious that it's hilarious to me, I smiled at him as he continued to play his game.After a moment of laying in bed and watching Netflix, I told him I would call him later.
I hung up with a smile and walked to my closet, I looked through my outfits and groaned as I had trouble looking for something comfortable and cute.
Scarlett's Outfit
As I walked downstairs, I was greeted with silence.
My dad left a note talking about going on a date with Alana, I was bored out of my mind but I didn't want to talk to anyone either.
I decided that it would be good to go on a walk, I grabbed my phone and left the house.
There was a slight breeze that touched my bare skin, cooling my warm body down.I didn't have a specific place to go to, I just allowed my feet to guide me to wherever it wanted to take me.
I found myself walking through a park, it was empty which freaked me out so I sped walked out of there.Soon I saw teens approaching, I didn't want to see awkward or friendless so I took my phone out and just went on different apps.
As I walked past them, I overheard their conversation unintentionally so it shouldn't count as eavesdropping.
"Just saying Marlene, you can't have a hot girl summer with a hot girl bummer body."
The blonde one said as they walked past me, I slowed down and looked back at them.
I remember back in middle school being bullied and pressured into looking "perfect".It took me back to a dark place.
It was December 15th, 2020.
~ Eighth Grade Scarlett's POV ~
My alarm for school awoke me, I groaned as I sat up and looked at the clock not really wanting to get up.
I rubbed my eyes and got up from bed, walking over to my door and turning on the lights.I walked into the bathroom and brushed my teeth, I did my skincare and walked out of my bathroom.
I knew I had to put on something to keep me warm because New Jersey weather is no joke.I put on my uniform and did my hair, I walked downstairs and packed my lunch.
I grabbed an apple, it was almost time for me to leave for school so I slid my phone into my pocket and grabbed my bookbag.I grabbed my lunch and left my house, mom was still asleep while my dad was out at work.
I left the house and began to walk to school, I head my headphone on and my Spotify playlist was playing.As I got to school, I sat beside Layla.
She hugged me and we began to discuss about today's science class because we were going to be dissecting a squid.
I was actually quite excited.Once the bell rung to tell us to get to homeroom, I got up and grabbed my bookbag.
I waited for Layla, we left the cafeteria and walked to the class when I accidentally bumped into Alessia.
"Watch it hippo."Alessia said without looking at me, my smile faded a little bit.
"Oh sorry Alessia, didn't see you there."
I apologized which caught her attention, she looked at me with a smirk and just giggled.
I was confused but didn't press on it, instead I walked to my homeroom and sat down.
The day drags on, leaving me exhausted and wanting to go home already.
But thank the Lord that it's now lunch time, I left Spanish when the bell rang and walked down to the cafeteria.I sat down at the usual table and waited for Layla to come with me, I watched Alessia walked into the cafeteria and walked over to me.
"You do know if you want to look attractive, you can't eat that much. Right?"
Alessia said, I looked down at my lunch and looked back at her.
I never really thought of that if I was honest but does this mean that other people thought about it?I gulped and slowly pushed my lunch away, I didn't want her to insult me again so I just tried to agree with her.
My stomach growled but I had to ignore it, Layla finally came and we began to speak.
It was science class now and I was hungry but didn't want to show it.
I took a deep breath and began to dissect the squid, I wanted the day to be over already.Once the day was over, I was packing my things up and watched Alessia walk over to me once again.
I sighed and put my scalpel down, I looked at her and watched as she sat down beside me."What is it now?"
I asked with annoyance seizing my throat, I didn't want to get insulted again.
"It's just, I'm looking out for you and I think you should cut down on your junk food."
Alessia said, I didn't know what to say.
All I wanted to know is if people really noticed my overweight but nobody said anything."I don't see anything wrong with my body though."
I retorted, I wasn't exactly sure if I wanted to change what I ate or what I do.
"Well I do, so listen to me alright?"
I nodded my head and left the class since the bell rang.
I didn't feel like going to homeroom, I walked into my house and greeted both my parents.I changed into some sweatpants and tank top, I stood in my room and did my homework.
I couldn't even focus on my homework, my mind was filled with the fact that my body didn't look good.I was called downstairs for dinner, we were having pasta and garlic bread.
As we sat down, we spoke about our day.I left out some parts of my day and ate my dinner, I walked upstairs but decided to go to the bathroom.
I decided to stay in there, I felt disgusted with my body.
Weeks had gone by and I had been starving and carving myself to look prettier, I couldn't tell anyone what was happening.
It was night and I was staring about myself in the mirror with tears in my eyes, I allowed them to fall as I looked at my body.
As I was whispering insults about myself, Layla knocked on the door.I opened the door and she pulled me into a hug, I hugged her back tightly and crumbled.
Today was the day I told Layla what I have been doing to myself." I just wanted to look pretty for once. "
I whispered as she rubbed my back, she held onto me.
I had never felt more vulnerable.
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