Love Language [A Park Jimin FF]

사십칠(Forty Seven) - S

"There is more?" He deduces while I gulped once trying to breathe, looking away while he only tilts my face back towards him with his finger, his intimidating gaze that demands for my full attention pierces right through my body as I swallowed, feeling the parchness of my throat, fuck.

"I-I'm s-sorr-"

"날 못 믿겠어 (nal mot mitkkesso/Do you not trust me)?"

"I-I do, I do of c-course I do-"

"But you tell Namjoon and Hoseok Hyung while I know nothing? When is important? When you cry...to them, and I don't know? When you say you want tell me everything...but no...I-why?"

His words were everywhere, and it was evident from his tone the amount of hurt and betrayal he was feeling right now. The tightness in my chest only increases just as it no longer felt tolerable, my legs giving way while I fell onto the ground heaving heavily.

"Sophie?!?"

This was a panic attack.

It felt as though my windpipe had suddenly been constricted, as I felt both chills and goosebumps roaming all over my body while my heart palpitates fast, the pounding of it against my chest was making me nauseous as Jimin scoops me into his arms, cupping onto my face with shaky hands as his eyes were now wide with fear and worry.

"Baby breathe...please breathe with me, okay? Deep breaths, deep breaths..." He says urgently, trying to get me to regulate my breathing with him while I did my best. Feeling my vision going a little dizzy from the palpitations, I shut my eyes tight, focusing on hearing his counts on the timing and number of breaths as I inhaled and exhaled as deeply as I could.

Wah, aren't you just the worst, Sophie?

"잘하고 있어, 자기야. 잘하고 있어(You're doing great, baby. You're doing great)..."

It was when the palpitations had finally subsided, with an extreme wave of tiredness washing over me did I properly calm down, the clamminess was still present in my hands but I could finally pry my heavy lids open, as I came face to face with a red-eyed Jimin.

He...had he been crying this whole time while guiding me?

"J-Jimin..." I finally breathed, and for the first time since I saw him this morning, he pulls his lips into a small teary smile while nodding, pulling me into a rather tight embrace as he kisses my forehead a few times, rubbing my back.

"You're okay...you're okay..." He whispers, as I nodded while hugging him back, the two of us remaining in this position on the floor for a while, saying nothing while I could feel his tears soak into the material of my shirt, him crying while fresh tears rose from my own eyes. I scared him, I know I did, and just as I had my own trauma towards that incident, he did too; towards me.

The fear of losing me.

"I'm sorry...정말 미안해요 (jongmal mianheyo/I really am sorry)..." I uttered out in both English and Korean, staring towards the mini intricate details that I had missed from the couch earlier, while Jimin doesn't loosen his hold on me.

Sometimes, when we get so wrapped up in our own pain, we fail to acknowledge those who suffered along with us.

"I'm sor-"

"No...not now."

He pulls his head back to look at me, his eyes all puffy now from our crying session. "I...I cannot right now." He says while shaking his head for emphasis, signalling to me that he needed some time before he was ready to hear my apology (and explanation) for everything again, something which I understood fully for if I were in his shoes right now, I would have done just the same.

"I understand." I responded quietly, preparing to leave and give him space but Jimin doesn't let go of me. Instead, he pulls me back closer to him while he buries his face into the crook of my neck.

"Stay...don't leave me." He mumbles against my skin, his breathing slightly choppy as I nod while holding onto him once more, blinking away my remaining tears.

"Okay."

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Translations by Papago.

협박 자 (hyopppak ja) = blackmailer/Threatener. There isn't exactly the term 'blackmailer' in the Korean language from what I understand, hence this comes the closest to it, with 협박 (hyopppak) meaning threat.

진짜요 (jinjja-yo) = really; formal tone. The use of "요(yo)" often makes anything a lot more formal.

날 못 믿겠어 (nal mot mitkkesso) = Do you not trust me?

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This chapter is really heavy...my heart truly goes out to them both right now :'( My original plan wasn't for Jimin to find out right now, but after some writing and thought I decided that maybe it is the right time after all 💜❤️ Anyways, stay safe everyone and always hydrate! I'm always grateful for all the support yall have shown, and I'll see yall in the next chapter 🥰