Mafia Series 3: Chasing The Heiress

Chapter 11

Natasha's POV:

Napapikit ako at hinayaan ang mga daliri kong tapikin ang bawat chord ng piano, hindi ko alam bakit ko kinanta 'to marahil  siguro sa title ng kanta. It's rainy and december night when I left him, tanging papel at ballpen lang ang naiwan ko sa kwarto ko para sabihin na aalis ako. I didn't know why he's so mad now that we're seeing each other again after 7 years.

"So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time..."

Marahan kong kinanta ang lyrics at sinigurado kong pataamaan ko ng sarili ko. If I could back the time that I wasn't hurt, I'll fight for him no matter what. If I can risk everything I had just to be with him, gagawin ko. Pero, hindi ko kayang gawin lalo na kapag may batang nakasalalay nung mga oras na 'yun.

"These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I'd loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye..."

I open my eyes at stared to the man I loved for almost seven years, our love was toxic. He's staring at me like I am the most beautiful girl tonight, hindi ko maiwasang titigan s'ya na may halong lungkot. Kitang kita ko mula dito ang lungkot at kislap sa mga mata niya kaya ngumuso ako at nagpatuloy.

"I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again I swear I'd love you right..."

Month of September when our love became toxic. He held me so tight habang ako, walang ginawa kung hindi ang sumuko dahil hindi ko na kaya. He kept on fighting but it doesn't enough for me because I was so hurt, that's why I keep my decision to leave him on December night while raining so hard.

Natapos ko ang kanta at bigla ay nawalan ako ng gana, they all clapped their hands. May iilan pa akong narinig na papuri pero ang paningin ko ay nasa kanya pa rin na nakatitig sa 'kin, huminga ako ng malalim. I don't want to ruin this night for my sister, I smiled weakly and kissed Stella's cheek to say my gratitude.

"Damn, hindi pa rin nagbabago ang boses mo..." sambit ni Jetro nang makalapit ako kaya nginitian ko s'ya.

"Everyone loved your voice even us..." sambit ni Lucky habang nakangisi ng malaki.

Hindi ko tinignan si Wade kahit ramdam ko ang nakakapaso niyang tingin, kinalma ko ang sarili ko. Napasinghap ako nang maramdaman ang kamay niya sa upuan ko at natatamaan ng daliri niya ang likod ko. Mas lalong naghihiyawan ang kalamnan ko sa ginawa niya, they're telling stories about their life. Napainom ako ng tubig dahil sa hindi matigil na pagkalabog nang puso ko.

"Hindi naman ako nagbago, ganoon pa rin naman ako..." sambit ni Wade habang tumatawa sa gilid ko.

Nanindig ang balahibo ko dahil nagdidikit na ang mga binti naming dalawa kaya huminga ako ng malalim. Hindi dapat ako naapektuhan ng ganito dahil lang sa presensya niya, tinignan ko s'ya ng palihim. Simula sa tsokolate niyang mata hanggang sa labi niya, perpekto na para bang ilang oras s'yang ginawa at naging ganito kaperpekto.

"E-excuse me...pasok lang ako sa bahay..." mahina ang boses ko kaya naagaw ko ang atensyon nilang lahat.

Sumipol si Clyde. "Possessive mo naman, baka naiipit na..." parinig niya habang nakangisi sa 'kin.