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FINALE • Part 3

Jungkook snorted at her sweetness. "Thank you," he told her honestly, actually also grateful that she trusted him. "Doctor Jung says that's normal for me, because I'm an introvert"

"Doctor Jung?" she asked, confused.

Oh wait!

"Ah fuck!" he rubbed his face, pressing his nose bridge. "I didn't tell you"

"How the hell you don't tell me things when we were talking every day since I left?" she complained, rolling to her side. "Sir, you're picking up a fight with me when we're already okay," she played, poking her chest and pretending she was angry. "When you said there are things we shouldn't talk about in our relationship it was supposed to be a joke"

Jungkook laughed and rolled on the bed to hug her back with one arm and fold the other under his head, to be super close to her. Lisa smiled at him and moved to her side so soon enough she was curled in his embrace.

"I started to see a therapist"

Lisa processed the information somewhat slowly and then frowned. "Fuck!" she got terribly worried and looked at him with big sad eyes. "Is this because I called your feelings stupid? I'm so sorry Jungkook, it was never my intention to push you to feel you need help, you don't, you're perfect," She insisted almost desperately, pouting deeply.

Jungkook kissed her lips to shut her up, laughing a little bit. "You're so cute"

"Don't laugh, I feel like shit, I'm so sorry," she repeated.

"Doll, love, I need help," he tried to explain.

"No, you don't!" she pulled away from him to sit on the bed. "I-"

"Listen to me," he asked, sitting down as well and taking her hands in his big ones. His thumb stroked the back of her hand soothingly. "I decided to get help not because you pushed me or something, the fight we had was a reason, yes, but it was because I realized that the main reason why we fought was that my brain is mean and fucked up and that's not okay. I do need help to fix it and be better, I can't keep fucking up with you because I can't deal with my shit."

"Oh... What do you mean with your brain being mean?"

Jungkook took a deep breath and looked away, embarrassed. He didn't want to tell Lisa this because it would sound like shit but... it was the truth and he didn't want to lie to her, it wasn't the right thing to do if he wanted this to work.

"My brain refuses to accept you love me and you will do it for a long time," he admitted slowly and forced himself to add more because he didn't want Lisa thinking she wasn't doing enough, she was doing so much more. "My brain is mean because it tells me I'm not enough, I'm not that interesting or worthy of love, and you will soon realize it someday and leave me"

"Oh Jungkook ...," she mumbled sadly and reached up to caress his cheek, her thumb rubbing his cheekbone so lovingly and gently. Of course, she didn't react as his stupid brain would have hoped, taking offense that he doubted her love. Lisa on the other hand was being understanding and she looked at him in such a way that she warmed his heart to solar temperature. "Baby, I love you so much and you're so good, sometimes even too good for me"

"And even when you say it all the time, someday I'll still think you're lying to me," he confessed sadly but refused to let go of that stupid resignation. "But I'm working on it and it's been easier since then, we just had 4 sessions but he says I'm doing well and I feel better," he was quick to say with encouragement, seeking to make her smile because he didn't want to ruin tonight for both of them.

And he did it, Lisa didn't smile completely but the corners of her mouth lifted a little. "I'm happy to hear that. I want you to feel good and if Doctor Jung helps you, keep going. I promised to be there for you and I will," she offered her pinky.