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FINALE • Part 3

"That's ... Okay," Lisa agreed and surprised him, but then she narrowed her eyes. "But it's not showering during winter or summer?"

Was that a tricky question? Why the face? Was she ready to judge him?

But he remembered then that she suspected him tasting his own cum, this couldn't be worse and at least his shower habits could change, not his past.

"Winter, it's too cold, especially when it's snowing"

"Okay, I can't judge because same, I don't shower either," she ended up shrugging and he smiled happily.

"It's okay, bad smell cancels bad smell"

Lisa giggled at that. "You never smell bad," she commented and frowned. "Do I ever smell bad?"

"No," Lisa arched a brow, not believing him for some reason. "I'm serious! You know I have a sensitive nose so I wouldn't stand it if there was some bad smell. That's also another annoying thing about me, I like sweet scents but not strong scents and I might get grumpy if someone smells too strong in my room"

Lisa just smiled tenderly, resting her face in her hand and tilting like an attentive child. Her long hair tickled his waist and he appreciated how damn comfortable he was in this bed with her, just like that. "That's such a stupid habit, sorry," she laughed at him and he couldn't deny it honestly, he didn't stand himself either when he was mad about smells. "What else?"

"There are times ..." his voice trailed off as he realized what he was going to say so lightly, without even thinking about it and very comfortable with the situation to think.

It was something deep in him and depressing, but what made him shut up wasn't that, but the fact that he was going to say it as simply as if he were going to say that the probability of rain today is 70% so you better stay at home.

"There are times ..." Lisa encouraged him to speak, curious.

He looked at her, her gaze was so warm and open, as ready to hear him as ever.

He was completely enveloped by this warm and comfortable feeling that she gave him every time.

"There are times I'm so sad and blue I prefer to stay locked in my room and not talk with anyone," he confessed softly.

Lisa's face fell as she muttered a little "Oh". Her gaze turned serious and brooding, causing him to frown. He didn't want her to get like this.

It wasn't really that bad. They were just silly emotions that could overwhelm him but they didn't last long, he was used to overcoming them (or suppressing them) and moving on with his life.

(a/n: don't suppress your sadness, accept it and feel it so in that way, you will be able to move on faster... said my therapist, i don't see the results yet bc im still sad as fuck)

Jungkook regretted speaking. It was a mistake to mention it because he didn't want to worry her.

"I feel like that too sometimes," she confessed as well, detaching him from his internal struggle. She then opened up to him: "But instead of locking myself up, I prefer to go out and spend time with people, work or walk among crowds ... Because while I'm feeling bad at least I'm not alone"

"That's smart," he whispered.

It actually was so adorable that he wanted to hold her and protect her from anything that might make her feel bad, even though it was physically impossible. And honestly, he didn't like her going out by herself, he still remembered the worry that consumed him that time after she found out the truth of Chaeyoung.

Lisa smiled a little. "Your method is smart too, we just heal differently. But I promise to let you alone when you need it," she said determinedly, fully willing to respect his space.